Insecurity | Jikook √

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WARNING : CONTAINS. GRAMMAR AND SPELLING ERRORS Where is all started because of one insecurity and one insen... Mai multe

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Jungkook POV

As I finally returned home tired and really sleely, I heard the TV still on

Aish this guy...does he not know what time it is already?

"Jimin-ah, it's late why are you still-" I was gonna nag at him again when I heard little snores

Aigoo...this baby... Does he not know that sleeping in front of the TV is bad for his eyes?

Without hesitation, I swiflty carried Jimin in my arms to our room bridal style, careful not to wake my mochi up

"Mmh.. J-Jungkoo ah? " he woke up suddenly just as I was about to lay him down on the bed

"Yes chimchim, it's me" I assured him as I watch him use his wrist to rub his eyes cutely

"What time is it? " he asked sleepily

"2 am why? " I replied

"Jungkoo..where have you been? Did you just reach home? Wait...why is there woman perfume on your shirt? " he asked with those 'what-the-hell' glare

"Ah...my friend had his girlfriend with him , so I guess her perfume ended up in my clothes too" I chuckled nervously

Shit shit shit... I'll kill Lisa!!!

"O-okay...you d-do love me right? " muttered the mochi in mu arms softly

"Of course I do.. " I smiled and went to kiss his soft and very kissable lips

"Hmm..." Jimin melted into the kiss and moaned lightly

I then laid him down on the bed and peck his forehead

"Go sleep, it's late" I whispered

"What about you? " he asked innocently

"I need to get clean first" I told him

After a few rounds of arguement since he won't go to sleep unless with me around, we ended up here :

Me showering while jimin wait for me outside the divider, sitting on the counter

Aish...my hyung so clingy.. But love it anyways

Once I'm done, I wrapped a towel around my waist before going over to brush my teeth feeling a burning stare behind me

"Jimin-ah...go to sleep , it's late" I sighed

"Not unless you're with me! "He pouted again like just now

Finally giving up , I quickly finish up changed before the little mochi climbed on my back and I piggyback him to the bed

"Ahh...finally" I sigh in content as I felt the smooth cozy bed under me

"Mhm...kookie! " Jimin pouted and quckily climb above me wrapping his arms around my neck, kind of in a straddling position

"Aigoo...why are you so clingy today mhm? " I chuckled lightly

"Cuz I love you...saranghae Jungkook! " he giggled like a child and peck my lips.

"Love you too , now goodnight! " I pecked him before pulling the covers over us. it wasnt long before little snores could be heard from the sleeping beauty beside me. i gently stoke his cheek and cant help but felt so guilty about the thing that happened just now over at blackpink's dorm


Flashback

"Lisa! Open up! " I called after knocking the on blackpink's dormroom door a few times

"Ooh Jungkook finally! You have no idea how long I've waited! " she said and quickly pulled me in before locking the door

"H-Holy... What?!?! " I screamed at all the clothes thrown all over the couch

From shirt skirts, crop tops, tight dress all the way to sexy lingerie

"Jungkook ah...which of these will turn you on, but not too sexy?" she asked casually

"What da fuk? " I asked back

"Jungkook !! " she groaned before coming over and whispering into my ear 

"Jungkookie...theres only the two of us now , it's fine. I need a outfit to seduce someone you know.." she whispered sending chills running down my spine.

I blushed immediately after hearing what she said.

"Lisa...i honestly dont find this appropriate you know. We are both idols , and you know im already dating Jimin." i warned her

She sighed before backing off. "Chill kook , i was just teasing! You know how we work , just bro and sis relationship , i would never change that ok.." she chuckled , but whether it was real or not i was not able to differentiate 

"If you say so..." i heaved a huge sigh of relief before randomly choosing a kitten outfit. the main reason i chose it was because it reminded me so much of Jimin...how his cute little jibooty will jiggle and the black lace will definitely compliment his milky skin so well that it will practically shine and turn every straight guy gay for him.

After settling Lisa's clothes problem, mostly me blushing all the time as I watched her dress up in all types of clothes asking me if it's sexy enough since it was really weird that even though it was her im looking at , i cant help but imagine Jimin in her position right now doing a lingerie fashion show for me instead , with his jiggly jibooty , cute chubby cheeks , and his oh-so-curvy-body

It's finally my turn to settle my problem now that Lisa finally is satisfied with whatever costume she decided to go with.

"Lisa...help me with this " I said and pointed down to the thing I needed help with

"Oh...let's take a look okay? " she smirked in a teasing way and I blushed again knowing the embarrassment that comes with it

This is so embarrassing...

"Oh what the shit..this is such a big problem I see there" she teased

"Just..shut up! I'll go to someone else if you won't help! " I threatened

"Okok.. " she chuckled and started to help me.

"But seriously kook , are you trying to write a song to confess your love or entering a cheesy competition

"Lisa noona!!!" i whined and nearly dug a hole to hide my face in and never come out again.

"You are the shadow to my light , my undying love for you is like the pacific ocean...pfft WHAT IS THIS JEON JUNGKOOK!!!!" Lisa bursted out laughing so hard tears were coming out

This is really embarassing...guess it's a good thing none of the blackpink members are around..or else who knows..they might just live this and but it on their instagram.

I was thinking of composing a love song for my Jiminie upon our one year anniversary about a few months away. However since I've never really wrote my own lyrics moreover a love song , i knew Lisa noona is my best option , considering she watched so much kdramas...

"I just hope Jimin wont be mad at me for leaving him alone to meet up with a female idol , but too bad , i need to give him the best gift i can offer.." i mumbled

End of flashback

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The next day

Jungkook POV

The same as usual, Jimin and I woke up, did our usual routine, then proceed to the studio. Apparently it's Friday today, so I could spent the whole weekend with my chimchim!

Once we arrive in the studio, the members were all already there, even Taehyung like WTFFFF!!!

TAEHYUNG WERE NEVER EARLY!!

It was really noisy in the room with lots of shouting, mostly from Taehyung...not surprisingly

"Yahh!! He can't just do that! I mean wtf ?!?!" Taehyung screamed in anger pointing at Jin

"Taehyung calm down! It's not like- ooh good morning Jimin, and kook! " Namjoom face immediately switched upon noticing our arrival

The hell? They hiding something from me and jimin?

"Ah, nice to see the both of you! Let's start everyone,as a leader , let's not argue about it anymore ok Tae and my Jinnie princess? " Namjoon hyung glared at the two before going over to Suga to discuss about their rapping

"Weird... " Jimin huffed

"Umm.. Anyway Tae-" I was gonna ask for some help with the new song lyrics but he just sent me a glare

"What? " he spat viciously

"No nothing " I replied before he turned around and stormed out of the room

"Jungkook, don't bother him, he's just annoyed " Hobi hyung assured me

"I guess I should go comfort him! " my little sunshine offered and skipped to the direction Taehyubg went

"Guess I'll just have to go to Jin hyung for help " I sighed

Jimin POV

Hearing that Taehyung was frustrated, I decided to offer myself to comfort him

Taehyung and I are very close! I should be there for him!

"Taetae ah? Kwaenchana? " I poke my head into the room to see Taehyung sitting on the sofa drinking his coffee angrily

"Taetae? Don't ignore me... Pls...did I do something wrong? " I asked innocently

"N-no Jimin, it ain't your fault, it's your stupid boyfriend !" He spat at the last part

"Ooh? What's wrong with kookie?" I asked getting curious now

"Did you not see the news yet!?!?! It's all over the news, fucking playboy!! " he groaned in annoyance

Now I'm really confuse, I really don't get what Taetae is talking about , especially the part about playboy....

I then logged onto my phone deciding to find out what the fuse is about, and what I saw made me frozen

"W-what? "I asked in confusion as I felt myself starting to break down

"J-Jimin...you okay? It's okay to let it out really, please just don't to keep it in, it will-" Taehyung started to panic at my reaction

"T-Taehyung... It's fine. Things like this have happened, I'm sure it's just a misunderstanding" I shrugged it off with a smile like it was nothing, but deep down, I swear to god it hurts.... Like never

"Jimin! How is it a misunderstanding!! You saw the CCTV footage yourself!! "He cried

"Taetae..I'm fine, really! " I managed to squeenzed out yet another smile before heading to the dance room

"I'll just... Take some time to think about it. Update you later? " I asked

"Please do..." He sighed and kissed my forehead

I smiled again before entering the studio where Hoseok hyung and I practice dances together when we are free

"Hyung! " I called out happily like a boy in luv

"Boy in luv... But not a boy with luv huh... Guess this is reality " I muttered under my breath

"Ah...Jiminie! Come, let's practice Boy with luv chorus if that's okay with you" J-Hope smiled back.

"Can we do butterfly please? "I asked with a puppy face

"butterfly? But i thought you dont like dancing slow songs? And why butterfly? its too random!" J-hope ask curiously

"But I enjoys it... "I tried to reason

"Nuuu... let's practice something more worthwhile likeboy with luv to prepare for our next concert " J-hope tried to convince me

"J-hope.. I.. Just really n-need to clear my head..please i want a slow song to help me think right now' i sighed sadly, the smile before disappeared completely

"Ahh...fine, but if you feel depress please talk it out to anyone you can ok? I don't want to see you hurting yourself like this" he warned me sternly

"Yes yes yes...I won't, now let's start! " I shouted like I'm all fire up
but deep down im kinda dead

Just as we got into position , the music started right on time

(Bold is song lyrics , italic is Jimin's thoughts )

Amugeosdo saenggakhaji ma
Neon amu maldo kkeonaejido ma
Geunyang naege useojwo

just give me a smile...can i even do that?

Nan ajikdo mitgijiga anha
I modeun ge da kkumin geot gata
Sarajiryeo hajima

jungkook...don't disappear from my life

Is it true? Is it true?
You, you
Neomu areumdawo duryeowo

jungkook...please...

Untrue Untrue
You You You

No, no, no, no!! It's true , our love is true right! Please it gotta be! It's true!!!!

Gyeote meomulleojullae

*THUMP*

Naege yaksokhaejullae
Son daemyeon naragalkka buseojilkka
Geopna geopna geopna

Jungkook..i'm scared now , please don't leave me

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I'm so focused on the song and the thousands of thoughts running through my mind to realise my hyung calling out to me worriedly

"-MIN! JIMIN! KWAENCHANA!" J-hope hyung shouted while shaking me violently to snap me out of my thoughts

"Huh? What?" i asked finally gaining my consciousness

"J-Jimin..please don't scare me like that , oh my god!" J-hope hyung gasped as i took some time to notice my surrounding and found myself on the floor , with a bruise on my left knee

"H-Hyung..did i fall?" i asked

"J-Jimin-ah! You were so into the dance , i tried calling you seeing how your eyes were not alive at all , but you never reply , until you trip yourself and fall , but you still didn't wake up till i had to shake you and scream your name!" J-hope hyung explained

"Sorry hyung....for worrying you!" i apologised feeling a pang of guilt struck me

Is this how Jungkook would feel if he cheats or lie to me? Maybe worse? Or maybe he doesn't feel anything at all?

"Whats wrong chimmy?" the sunshine in front of me asked in such a soft and gentle voice that brought tears to my eyes

"H-Hyung..i saw the news , and...and...i'm scared , i dont know what could be happening inside her dorm....im..so confused right now!" i clung onto his shirt as i emptied all my tears , pain , frustration and hurt

"Jimin..let it all out , i promise you Jungkook's love for you is real ok " he soothed me while whispering sweet nothings into my ear to calm me down.

TIMESKIP ( Jungkook POV)

"Taehyung...what did i do?!?! Will you fucking stop avoiding and ignoring me? Its not gonna work!" i cried out at last , feeling hurt and saddened that my closest hyung was doing this to me

"Jungkook-ah , ok fine , read the news and you will understand it yourself.." taehyung finally gave in and sighed

No matter how mad he is at Jungkook , he still could not bear to hurt Jungkook emotionally and mentally as well , they are very close after all.

"F-Fuck..hyung..what have i done?!?!" i gasped in realization after reading the news Taehyungie hyung wanted me to

"Mmn..care to explain?" he shrugged and glared at me again

"Hyung..i'll explain another time , but , i need to find Jiminn first!!!" i panicked

"Aish...fine , you owe me one , Jimin in with J-Hope in the dance room" the older sighed

"B-but..what if he hates me? What if he requested for a breakup? I c-cant lose him..." my voice start to crack and the though of Jimin crying and shouting 'ive had enough , let's break-up now'

thats...terrible....horrible...and ill be very miserable

"Jimin love you too much , so if your reason is reasonable , he will accept it!" taehyung assured me before dragging me to the dance room

After preparing myself , i took up a while lot of courage to open the door

"Mochi ah! I need to talk to you for a mo-" i began in a pretty loud voice due to my nervousness but was being shut-uped

"Shush! He's asleep you idiot! Pabo!" J-Hope whispered shouted

"Sorry.." i mouthed

"Now..here to collect your prize possesion?" J-hope ask with a glare as well

"Please hyung..i need to explain it to him..privately..first" i begged as i was literally on the verge on tears now

"Fine..go on , but hurt him again i wont be on your side anymore!" he threatened and left the room

"Lets g-go home n-now" i quickly tried the tears that managed to escape and carried my princess to the car bridal style before speeding home

Please Jimin...i love you....don't leave me!!!!

Feeling the need to rush home faster , my grip on the steering wheel tightened as i drove faster , like a maniac

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Authors notes here!
I made this chapter twice longer than the usual since I'm a little guilty that I didn't update for nearly a week

Secondly..wOw..cAnT bELiEve this but 46 reads already?!?! Hell i didnt forget what i promised , 4 more reads to go and 10 more votes? GUysss plsss vote!!! Dont be a silent reader , but if its not good enough for votes then..ok fine...

Disclaimer : i dont hate Lisa from Blackpink , but Lizkook is just rlly popular , so yup! Srry if it triggered anyone! Mianhae!

By the way , if yall like romance , can check out my other book :

Forbidden Crush (completed)

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