Chapter 55: Sweaty Mouth
Song: Pools by Paramore
HAYLEY
I snap my eyes open and awaken to the feeling of a sweaty mouth and the taste of eggs.
I quickly jump out of my bed and rush across the hallway to my bathroom, immediately kneeling down to the toilet and tossing up whatever I had the night before.
God, this sucks.
How am I going to take care of a baby when I can barely take care of myself?
Tell Calum.
No, I can't. He'll get angry and yell and things will be even worse than they already are.
My phone vibrates again and I look down at it, feeling slightly annoyed at the notification.
3 Missed Calls From: GRACE ✨
5 iMessages From: GRACE✨
17 Missed Calls From: Calum🌏💔
4 iMessages From: Calum🌏💔
Those two are always blowing up my phone, why can't a girl just be left alone?
I open Gracie's messages first, not feeling in the mood for Calum's bullshit right now.
GRACE✨:
BITCHCKCK
GRACE✨:
HOWKDKD IM SO PROUD
OF YOU BBG
GRACE✨:
YOU ARE GUNNA DO
BIG THINGS HAYESSS
GRACE✨:
BITCH WAKE UP ITS
LIKE 3 PM WHERE U R
GRACE✨:
Y U SLEEPIN IN SO LATE
HAYES🌹:
wtf are u on about
HAYES🌹:
and i'm waking up late cause
i've been sick lately
GRACE✨:
hOE UR ABOUT TO
HAVE UR OWN
COMPANY FOR UR
CLOTHES N SHIT?!?!?!?
GRACE✨:
diD YoU nOT KNow aBouT
yOUR OwN sHIT
My breath hitches in my throat and my eyes grow wide with shock.
I got the deal?
A week and a half ago, I met with someone who's seen my work- the clothes I've been making- and he said he wants to endorse me. He wants to give me my own company but he said he wouldn't be able to give me word back for another two weeks.
Wait, how does Gracie know?
I quickly scroll through Instagram, and my heart drops at the sight before my eyes.
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forevermorefashion: Proud to announce our newest designer to be endorsing @thehayleysawyer !!! So many new pieces we've seen and can't wait for all of you to see as well! We're sure that you'll love her just as much as we do❤️✨
👤: thehayleysawyer
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"OHMYGOD! I'M BEING ENDORSED! THEY'RE TAKING ME! IT'S HAPPENING!"I scream at the top of my lungs with happiness flowing through my body.
I quickly tap on Calum's messages and see what he has to say.
Calum:
I'm so proud of you,
angel xx
Calum:
You're out there and
doing what you love
Calum:
If I were there I would
give you a special
big bag of gummy bears
and a giant jug of bug juice
for us to share xx
Calum:
Congratulations, Hayley,
I'm very proud of you ❤️ xx
My Everything💍💔:
thank you cal :)
My Everything💍💔:
and good luck with tour !!
Alright, my 10 seconds of being nice is over.
Feeling my mouth sweating yet again, I quickly plop down to the toilet to repeat.
Throw up, brush my teeth, check my stomach, and think about telling someone. Of course, I'm not going to tell anyone.
Plus, today isn't about my pregnancy, it's about the fact that I finally have my own company, and I can finally start doing my dream. Making clothes and selling them professionally.
But first, I have to go to my mom.
I haven't seen her in about 4 months. Last time I left her alone for more than a month, she couldn't even remember her last name. It almost broke me.
That's why I have to go. She's my top priority.
Well- now I guess this baby is.
Do I even want this baby? Maybe Calum was right; maybe a kid would be a huge distraction-
Calum's not here.
But if he were here, what would he do? Should I talk to him?
No, I don't need Calum to do everything. I can do this for myself. I can take care of a kid. I don't need his help. Plus, he doesn't want kids, so telling him about this would ruin everything for him.
As of on cue, he texts me.
Calum:
Hey, u ok? xx
Calum:
Gracie told me that
you're feeling sick and
just woke up xx
TELL HIM THE TRUTH-
no, I can't. He's on tour and he doesn't need this kind of problem to deal with right now.
My Everything💍💔:
yeah i'm fine, just been feeling
under the weather a bit
Calum:
If you need anything,
I'm here for you xx
Calum:
You know that right???
Calum:
I'll always be here for
you no matter what xx
My Everything💍💔:
i know
My Everything💍💔:
gtg i'll ttyl maybe
Calum:
Okay baby xx
Calum:
I love you xx
My Everything💍💔:
i know
After the short conversation with Calum, I leave the bathroom and head to my bedroom to get dressed for the day.
CALUM
"Something doesn't feel right."I murmur, staring blankly at my phone.
"Is it your conscious finally telling you that you're a dick?"Gracie speaks sarcastically. I roll my eyes and look up at her.
"Who even told you to come back here?"I growl, questioning her presence in the band's dressing room. "Luke did, now what are you so unsure about?"she sighs out, plopping next to me on the couch.
"It's Hayley. She's sick."
"Okay? And? People get sick all the time."she crosses her arms.
I shake my head in denial. "Not Hayley. She might be the most unhealthy person I know but she never gets sick. Unless it's a hangover."I state. Her eyebrows furrow together. "So in the many years you guys have known each other, she's never been sick?"she questions. I nod.
"What's so different now?"she follows up.
"If she's sick, it's probably not a regular sickness. It's probably not a simple cough or cold or flu..."I trail off, running a hand through my hair.
She widens her eyes and bites down on her bottom lip. "How long ago did you guys have sex before she left?"she asks awkwardly.
I count it over in my head before answering, "Its been a good month or so... why?"
"Do you think she's pregnant?"
"No, she took two tests and they both said negative."I assure her.
"I gave her four to take and she only took two? God, she's so dumb sometimes."she grumbles before pulling her phone out of her pocket and clicking multiple things rapidly.
"What're you doing?"I ponder.
"Calling Hayley,"she pauses to set the phone to her ear and stares over to me, "congrats, Cal. There's a chance you might be a dad after all."
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guys i feel like
literally shit
emotionally
mentally
physically
everything basically.
i just don't feel ok :)
-Jenna💕