Karly:
Sunny closed his chest plates once he managed to calm down, he gave me a soft look as he gathered me up and brought me close to his face. I leaned against his cheek and kissed his nose softly with a smile, a purr seemed to rumble in his chassis.
"My femme." He murmured with a tone I could only identify as happiness.
"Sunstreaker, what do you want more than anything?" I questioned curiously as I looked into his optics.
"You and Sideswipe." He responded without missing a beat, making my heart flutter, he was so serious and so certain.
"I want my brother back, I want us to be a close as we used to be. I want you with us, and I want to find a place far from the war, far from the autobots where we can just live in peace, just the three of us." He sounded as if he had been thinking on this a lot, and it made sense he would.
We sat in comfortable silence for a short moment.
"What about you Cookie? What is it you want?" He questioned I gave a soft smile.
"A family, people who accept me as i am despite all my flaws and still love me." I looked away from him in thought as I started to smile a little wider.
"But i think i've already found that." Looking back at Sunny I grin at him, his optics flashed a bit in what I would assume is slight surprise.
"The decepticons are so warm and welcoming to me, they've done so much and given me so much, Sideswipe has given me even more. He's always there for me when i get in my dark moods and he never fails to make me feel better, he protects me and makes sure i'm taking care of myself." I could see the jealousy flicker briefly in his optics but it quickly went away.
I give him a look of understanding.
"Even though we don't get to interact nearly as much, you always make me feel good. You can make me laugh and you make me feel attractive despite how lewd you get. You're a softie and you're open with me, you don't hide how you feel and you're more willing to talk about whats on your mind." He looked almost embarrassed as he looked away from me.
"I don't know what i'd do without you guys. I terrifies me so much that one day i'm going to wake up to find this was all a dream. I have a sticky not on my wall that tells me i'm still here cause there are times I wake up from nightmares hysterical and terrified to find you guys gone." I felt arms gather me up towards the middle of my sentence. Sunny held me securely in his lap as he rested his chin on my shoulder.
"You'll never had to worry about losing us, no matter what, Sides and i will find you. We love you Cookie, we'd go to the ends of the galaxy for you." He said softly as his hands gathered up my own, he gently kissed them. I felt my eyes start to sting hearing those words before tears slipped down my cheeks, i buried my face into the crook of his neck.
"My sweet femme, you put on such a tough act but you are so fragile." He crooned petting my hair.
We sat in a comfortable silence, Sunny holding me securely in his arms.
"I'm going to defect to the Decepticons, not yet, but soon. Something is telling me to stay a little larger." Sunny broke the silence and I instantly pulled away with a wide happy grin.
"Really?" The excitement I felt was unreal, he and Sideswipe could finally work on fixing their relationship!
He nodded with a grin.
"Just be patient, I'm gathering as much information as i can before I leave." He brushed my bangs from my face and stole a kiss.
We spent most of the night talking, enjoying each others company, Sunstreaker spent most of the time holding me as he listened to me talk about anything that came to my mind. From my pet peeves to favorite things, even ranting about a horrible ending to a comic I loved.
He was being an extreme softie, not a trace of his usual perverted self to be seen. He seemed relaxed and he was more open with me than ever before. When he finally began to talk, i listened with my full attention. He told me stories of the troubles he and Sides got into back on Cybertron before the war, friends they once had, what they enjoyed doing, things they did just to make it while living in the slums. Eventually I began to doze off, the soothing tone of his voice and the comfortable hold he had on me made it a struggle to stay awake.
I felt a hand gently trace my cheek.
"Sleep tight Cookie." i heard him murmur before I finally succumbed to sleep
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When I woke up I just sat comfortably in Sunny's alt, apparently he had moved me sometime while i was asleep. There was a holoformic blanket draped over me and I cuddled into it, it was early morning, but I didn't want to leave just yet. Plus I could tell Sunny was deep in recharge. A smile formed on my face as I pet the seats of his alt. My heart was racing, it had been for a while, I felt so jittery it was unreal. I knew it was my feeling for him getting deeper, I was happy we had the time to grow closer last night. I know he needed it and i definitely needed it.
What scared me the most was us not working, I was a human from another dimension, while I was a lot better at defending myself. There was still that paranoia of being suddenly shipped back to my old world, back to the world I didn't belong. I prayed to whatever God may exist that this wasn't some kind of sick joke on me.
The overwhelming sense of dread at that thought was dizzying. I could feel the panic and the dread making my heart drop at the thought of finally having everything I wanted and then to have it suddenly stripped away. If I were to be sent back to my old world, it would kill me. I wouldn't be able to function. Hell just the thought of being in a coma and this world being some sort of fabrication of my subconscious was paralyzing in itself. It flipped my mental-world around like some twilight-zone bullshit.
But i knew this was real, and I needed to ensure that it stayed real. If I were to be sent back to a world where all the beings I loved were nothing but fiction, i would go nuts.
I found myself cuddling into Sunstreaker's seats, using him to keep my head on straight. I was pretty sure I was slowly easing into a panic-attack. I needed to get my thinking straight, before i did drop into an attack. But the thoughts were too loud to ignore.
Everything was going so good, too good. I was absolutely terrified of losing this. I had fallen in love with this world, I had finally found the family I've wanted, and by some miracle, romance. I firmly clenched my fist, I was going to make sure i didn't lose this. Even if I had to sell my soul off to the highest bidder, if that were even possible.
"Cookie?"
I jumped slightly and looked up at Sunstreaker's radio.
"Yes?" I questioned, my voice shaky, i quickly tried to hide it, but I felt i was too late. I'm sure Sunny noticed.
"Are you okay? Your anxiety levels went up." He tone showed concern.
I gave a nod and forced myself to seem relaxed.
"I'm fine Sunny, just, thinking." I looked away from his radio, a sigh escaping me
"You aint going to lose us, you're stuck with me and Sides, so try not to worry." Sunny was able to read exactly what was going through my mind.
Soon both twins were going to be able to read me like a friggin book, and i honestly don't know how to feel about that.
I nod as I scratched the back of my head.
"Its just hard not to worry." I sit up to stretch with reluctance, beginning to fix my hair since it became rather messy.
"You should probably take me back, Sides will be looking for me soon." I murmur, I didn't want to leave him, I hated that fact that he had to be alone, but the next time I see him I'll be sure to make it up to him.
"Yeah, you're probably right." I could hear the hesitance in his tone as he started his engine before beginning to drive to the spot he dropped me off last time.
We sat in a comfortable silence as he drove, Sunny seemed to be in thought, and I didn't want to disturb him. Seeing my stop getting closer i looked over to the radio.
"Last night was great, I want to see you again soon." I told him honestly once he came to a stop.
"Don't worry, you will be~" He purred, i snorted and got out, giving his hood at pat, to which he gave me a purr.
"I'd give you a kiss but I do believe brother dearest is near." he hummed before shutting his door and taking off with a loud rev of his engine.
I shook my head with a fond smile.
"Show off."