"Me."
"Kendall?"
***
"Who else would it fucking be? Jesus?" She spits sarcastically and you're sure you're mirroring the same expression as her; anger.
"Y/N, we're leaving right now," she tries to pull you towards the exit but you let go before she manages to pull you out the door.
"Kendall, what the fuck do you think you're doing?" You look around to see no traces of Hailey.
"Kendall? You never call me Kendall..." she mutters under her breath. She looks hurt, her voice laced with sadness yet you didn't care.
"Yeah that's your name isn't it," you scoff and roll your eyes while she glares at you.
"Are you crazy? What the fuck was that? I like her, Kendall!"
"I thought you were in love with me?"
"I'll give you a hint, Kendall. Keyword; were. As in past tense. I'm trying to get over you. You have a boyfriend now, okay? I get it. You don't like me like that, but Hailey does. You can't just do that. It's like you're trying to ruin my love life on purpose. I'm not leaving with you. Drive safely, yeah?" You send her a soft smile before disappearing into the crowd of bodies.
You see Hailey sitting at the bar and relief instantly fills you as soon as you realise that she didn't leave you for another girl or guy. But before you could walk towards her, someone grabs you by the arm and drags you towards the closest bar stool.
"How does it feel?" Jordan says with a smug smirk on his face. You clench your jaw. The sight of his ugly ass immediately angering you.
"How does what feel? Honestly, you know what? I have no time for this. I have to get back to Hailey," you try to get out of your seat but his statement stops you in your tracks.
"How does it feel to lose? She's mine, Y/N. Its been three months. I bet she didn't tell you that, huh?"
Three fucking months of dating him? Why the fuck did she not tell you and how the fuck did you not find out?
"I can kiss and hug her whenever the fuck I want and you can't do a single thing about it. So tell me, Y/N, how does it feel knowing that I'm going to be the one making her scream in pleasure tonight?" Your back is towards him yet you can basically hear the smirk in his voice. Your jaw clenches in jealousy but a smile appears on your face as you turn around to look him in the eyes. You didn't want him to have the satisfaction that his words affected you more than they should've.
"You know what Jordan? I'm happy for you. I'm happy for Kendall. I'm happy for your relationship. She may be yours right now but I swear to god, if you hurt her I will not hesitate to kill you, you got that?" You growled in his face before storming off to the other end of the bar where Hailey was sitting.
"Hey, I'm so sorry about Kendall," you say as soon as you sit next to Hailey. She smiles warmly at you.
"It's alright. Wanna go outside?" You nod, really needing some fresh air, and take her hand in yours to lead her out into Gigi's balcony, overlooking the pretty night view of Los Angeles.
Even from outside, you can hear the loud music from the inside. You grab Hailey by the waist and she wraps her arms around your neck as you sway to the music, just enjoying each other's company. Although it's just the two of you outside, you couldn't help but let your mind wander to the beautiful brunette with the endless legs. It's frustrating how she manages to fill up all of your thoughts, even if she was really pissing you off right now.
"You like her don't you?" Hailey breaks the silence. You don't even have to ask her who's she's talking about. She knows so you nod.
"Yeah. It's pathetic, I know. I always go after the unattainable straight girls," you laugh bitterly, wishing you could like Hailey as much as you like Kendall. Hailey stays silent. You've hurt her unintentionally. You didn't ever mean to, it's your stupid heart's fault. It's so bloody stubborn by not wanting to let go of Kendall.
"Well, if you ever get over her, don't hesitate to call me, yeah?" You nod and bring her into a warm embrace.
"I'm sorry," you say sincerely and she giggles. Why she's giggling, you'll never know.
"It's fine, Y/N. Honestly. I know you can't control who you fall for, but just know that I can wait for you," she kisses your cheek at the same time the balcony door opens.
Kendall stands at the door, looking dumbfounded as she watches Hailey kiss your cheek. From her angle, it could've looked like you were making out. I mean, you were significantly taller than the blonde. You tense up, like you've just been caught cheating. She quickly runs back into the party, not looking back for a second.
"Who was that?" Hailey asks, looking towards the door as soon as her lips pull away from your cheek.
"No one, just some random person," you lie as you tried to get rid of your thoughts that were painted with Kendall's colours. She shrugs and sits down on the outdoor couch. You take a seat next to her as you both watched the sunset peacefully. Her head rested on your shoulder and you wondered why you couldn't fall in love with her. She was perfect in every way.
But you didn't want perfect.
You wanted the girl who pissed you off to no end yet continued to love even in your worst arguments. You wanted the girl with several mood swings a day but was so fucking adorable while having them. You wanted Kendall.
But you couldn't have her.
Your peaceful state was interrupted by the loud rings of your phone. You tried to ignore it but the caller would not stop calling. You shot Hailey an apologetic look before pulling your phone out of your pocket.
"Where are you?!" A familiar voice of an angry Brit rang through my phone speakers. You chuckle before answering.
"Zayn, chill. I'm on the balcony with Hailey. Why?"
"You need to get your fucking ass out here right now."
"Why? What happened?"
"Kendall she's uh— oh fuck. Y/N, just hurry up get come out here. We're down by the pool," the mention of Kendall made my head snap up in worry.
"Zayn! What th—" you were cut off by her hanging up on you.
"Hailey, I'm really sorry but there's an emergency out there and I really need to go," you state apologetically and she nods in understanding.
"Of course. Catch up soon?"
"I'd like that," you give her one last hug before sprinting outside towards a big group of people. You haven't even reached the circle yet you can already hear Kendall's authoritative voice, scolding everyone in sight.
"Y/N, holy shit, thank god you're here! She's gone mad, I'm telling you," Zayn gives you a quick hug before shoving you towards the brunette. Gigi and Bella are by her side, rubbing her back as she gags into the bushes. A look of relief runs through their faces as soon as they see me.
"Ken?" You say softly. She turns around to glare at you with bloodshot eyes. Even right now, she looks so goddamn perfect to you.
"What the fuck do you want now?" She slurs her words, stumbling towards me.
"Are you fucking drunk?" You take the can of beer out of her hands before throwing it towards the ground, emptying the contents of the drink onto the green grass.
"Who the fuck let her drink this much?" You yell out to the group behind you, to which they respond with shrugs and whispers that you couldn't decode right now.
"Oh shut up, Y/N. You're acting like my mother."
"And you're acting like a five year old. C'mon let's go, Ken."
"Oh, so after tongue fucking Hailey, now you wanna leave? I'm not going anywhere with you," she tries to shove you backwards but ends up falling onto your chest.
"Then who's going to take you home? Jordan? Please, give me a break. He's just going to take advantage of your drunken state."
"No, he's not taking me home either. Not when he was swapping saliva with some bitch," she spits angrily and you fume as well. You're so going to kill his ass.
"Stay right here, okay Ken? I'll be right back," you make sure she's safe with Gigi and Bella before running off to find the piece of shit.
Luckily for you, you didn't have to run far as he was sitting poolside with a blonde chick on his arm. You hear Gigi calling your name out but you ignore it. Before standing behind Jordan, you look towards Gigi who's looking at you with pleading eyes, Kendall slouching lazily in her arms but also watching you. You turn back around, ignoring their hawk-like eyes on your body.
"Jordan," you growl. As soon as he stands up and faces you, your fist comes in contact with his nose. You hear a crunch before punching him in the balls as well.
He tries to swing at you but you already anticipated the idiotic move so as he swung his arm, you dodged it and kicked his ass, causing him to fall flat on his face. He groaned in pain as his (probably) broken nose came in contact with the ground.
"How dare you do that to my girl?!" He stands up and you don't hesitate to punch him again. You grab him by the shirt and lean your mouth near his ear.
"Alright buddy, I'm going to say this once and once only so use these big ass ears of yours and listen to me. I will kill you, literally kill you, if you do not leave this house in approximately one minute. Do you understand?" He doesn't respond to which you punch him in the gut. He groans in pain before letting coughing profusely.
"Yes, fuck..." you let go of his shirt and push him backwards. He nearly falls into the pool and he would've if you pushed him a little harder.
"Get the fuck out of my face," you growl and he quickly runs past, trying to get out as fast as possible.
"Ken, we're leaving," you say as soon as you're in her hearing range. She doesn't struggle this time and let's you drag her towards your car. After buckling her up and giving her a bottle of water to sober up, you zoom down the (surprisingly) empty highways of Los Angeles. You were driving for about half an hour in silence. You thought she was fast asleep but you were wrong.
"I knew you would do that, you know..." she mumbles quietly. You think she's basically sober now so that's a good thing. Knowing that she won't be throwing up on your leather seats takes a load off your shoulders.
"Do what?"
"Punch him. I told him as soon as I saw him kissing her. I said, 'you better watch the fuck out cause my best friend's gonna come for your ass' and you did, so thank you," you chuckle, clearly amused that she knows you so well.
"You know I'd do anything for you, Ken."
"Are you still mad at me?"
"I could never stay mad at you for a long time, Kenny," she grabs your hand that was resting on the clutch. Your hand immediately ignites, the feeling of your skin burning against hers.
"Will you be honest with me?"
"Always," you glance at her to give her a soft smile, to which she returns.
"Did you actually kiss Hailey?" You chuckle.
"No, I wanted to at first but no. What you saw on the balcony was nothing. We were just hugging and she happened to kiss my cheek when you walked in," you explain the situation to her as soon as you reach a stop light. She sighs in relief.
"Oh, and I'm sorry about you and Jordan..."
"Nah it's okay, cause now I can do what I've been wanting to do for the past 3 months."
"Really? That's great, Ken! Why didn't you tell me that he was restricting you from doing something that y—" she cut you off with a soft kiss on the lips. Your body felt like it was in flames. You wonder if the feeling you get when you're in heaven could compare to what it feels like with her lips on yours.
"God, I've been so madly in love with you for these past months already."
"Why didn't you leave him, then? We could've been together sooner, bloody hell."
"He started off as just a PR stunt. I didn't want to accept my feelings for you so I agreed to go out with him for real. And then when you kept asking me out on those dates, I really wanted to scream and jump into your arms and kiss you over and over again to express how much I would love to go out with you, but I couldn't. Jordan and I had a contact, and I was also scared to lose the most important thing in my life; our friendship," the two of you stay silent, processing what just happened. You couldn't help but let out a massive grin.
"Well then, Miss Jenner, would you like to go out for dinner one time?"
"I would love to, Miss Y/L/N," she giggles and pecks your lips one more time before you continue to drive.
"Are you sure you're not secretly in love with me?" You joke and she giggles.
"I'm sure," she pauses for effect. You can almost hear the smirk.
"I'm sure because it's not a secret. I'm in love with you, it's not a secret anymore. It's was you all this time, babe. It was always you."