yes, this is an update. your eyes aren't playing wit ya.
OMNISCIENT
The sun's beams peaked through Dinah's apartment ricocheting from the grey and red walls to form a warm hue in the room. On the bed, however, lay two figures sprawled on top of the sheets. Legs intertwined, fingers laced and their hair mixing on the pillow creating an abstract art piece of gold and caramel locks.
China, being the morning person she is, woke up first and to say she was confused would be an understatement. It doesn't take long for the girl to notice the pain coming from her head and for all the memories from the previous night to fill her thoughts.
"Deej, wake up," she tries shaking the Polynesian out of her slumber but it's futile. It's almost as if she's to wake up a log.
Finally seeing that there's no way to wake Dinah, she retreats to the bathroom to get ready for the day. There's a lot of shit that needs to be solved today.
Since she hadn't brought an overnight bag, Dinah's clothes would have to do. After rummaging through Dinah's closet for a good 15mins, China finds a suitable outfit for her to wear.
The pants felt very comfortable and there was no way Dinah would be getting them back.
After getting ready and drinking an aspirin to calm down her headache, she decided to go make breakfast and hopefully by then Dinah would be awake.
Just as predicted, Dinah comes sauntering into the kitchen with the messiest bed hair but still managing to look cute. She makes her way to the island and takes a seat while China plates chocolate chip pancakes for them both.
"Morning Deej, would you like some coffee?"
"Yes please and make it strong," the older girl mumbles before yawning and stretching her arms to emphasise her exhaustion.
"Rough night?" China chuckles while turning towards the coffee machine.
"You could say that," Dinah replied before stabbing a pancake and bringing the bite to her mouth to savour.
"We need to talk about what happened last night." Dinah sighs but continues to take a few more bites of her pancakes then brings the cup of coffee towards her lips before replying.
"Yeah but only after I've taken a shower and don't think I haven't noticed you wearing my clothes Nachi."
China lets out a laugh. "These pants are so comfortable Deej, you ain't getting them back."
Dinah just laughs it off and the two girls fall into a comfortable banter about school and China's new film.
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"Deej you can't keep postponing this conversation. We're having it now!" China breathed out trying to calm her frustration. She couldn't understand why Dinah wanted to act like yesterday never happened.
"But like I want to finish this season of Wentworth so I can move on to the next one, Nachiii" Dinah whined before pausing the TV and turning to face the petite girl next to her. "Okay there. Let's talk."
"I don't get it Dinah, why don't you want to talk about this?"
"Because," she took a deep breath to calm herself down before continuing. "Because I know that I'm going to get my heart broken. I know that there's no way you're going to leave Pearl for me. I know that last night was nothing but a distraction for you, China."
To say that China was shocked would be a huge understatement. How the hell did Dinah come up with those assumptions? The fact that Dinah had jumped to those conclusions angered the actress.
"How could you possibly know any of that Dinah Jane?"
"We hardly know each other, China, and the possibility of anything I've said not being true is very slim."
"Do you think that I would deliberately hurt you?" China said, her voice cracking slightly towards the end. The emotion was high between both girls and tears were threatening to fall from both sides.
"I never said it would be deliberate. Sometimes we hurt people without knowing that we are. But the oblivion won't make it hurt less, China."
"I like you so much Dinah Jane and I would never deliberately hurt you."
"But?" Dinah questioned before wiping a rogue tear that had fallen without her permission.
"But I cannot do that to Pearl. I love her Dinah and I cannot leave her, I'm sorry." China said this with tears making their way down her cheeks. This didn't seem right, the pain in her chest was physically weighing her down. This was not what her heart wanted.
Dinah refused to cry. How can she cry about losing a person she didn't have in the first place? She felt like she didn't have the right.
"I understand, China. I wish you all the best," Dinah moved closer to her friend and wiped her tears with her thumb before giving her a kiss on the forehead.
After a while, China had stopped crying and they watched another episode of Wentworth. The series did a good job at allowing the girls to forget about their conversation.
"I've got to get going. I'll see you around?" China said while standing up to leave.
"Of course," Dinah gave a small smile. "Don't let your brain make decisions that your heart can't follow."
"Wow thanks Rupi Kaur 2.0. I'll text you later. Bye Deej," the actress chuckled before leaving.
CHINA
"Okay I'll meet you at the cafe downtown in an hour, I just need to answer some emails and change my clothes," I responded to Pearl, who was on the other end of the phone.
"Alright babe, I can't wait to see you."
"Laters babe." I hung up and set to work at responding to some emails and sending out some thank you emails to magazines that gave my film a good review.
I couldn't stop thinking about what happened earlier this morning. Did I really just do that to THE Dinah Jane Hansen? Wow, I'm such a bad person. It's just that even though Pearl and I are going through a rough patch, I still love her a lot. But Dinah has snuck her way into my heart and I just cannot deal with this dilemma.
After finishing up the emails, I make my way to the closet and choose a crop top with matching shorts. Even though I'm mad at Pearl, I still want to look cute for her. I also decide to wear my curly hair down since she likes it when I wear it that way.
Reaching the cafe with a little time to spare, I decide to order two Americanos for us and cheese with tomato croissants. I know it's like the afternoon but I like having breakfast food at any given time of the day and it's a trait that all the people around me have come to accept.
"Hey baby, I'm sorry if I kept you waiting for long," Pearl apologises before giving me a small peck on the lips.
"Not at all. I literally ordered not so long ago and they should be - oh here they come now," I say pointing at our waiter making his way to us.
"Oh yay, that's good babe. Otherwise I would feel guiltier than I already feel," the older girl says in a soft loving voice. The waiter gives us our food and I thank him before taking a sip of my coffee.
"Oh yeah! I forgot that I'm mad at you for missing the premiere."
"I truly am sorry, I couldn't ditch work and I tried making them let me cover your premiere and review it but they just wouldn't budge."
"It's okay, I forgive you. But you have to see it soon babe."
A comfortable silence fell on us as we ate our food. I enjoyed this because it gave me time to appreciate this moment of peace in my life but of course Pearl had to ruin it by talking.
"Oh and how was it last night?"
Holy shit. Fuck. I have to come out and say it. I hate lying to people, it's just not my character and even though I don't want to hurt two people in one day, I have to. Wow, I'm really an asshole.
"It was good and," here goes nothing. Might as well rip the band-aid off. "And I kissed Dinah Jane."
Wowee is there anyone still reading this and wants me to continue this story?