when i was seven,
lola had a boyfriend
he said his name was jake
and i could call him jakey
i stopped seeing jakey at the door
so i asked lola about jakey
her eyes began to ache
and she ran to her room
(i still had no idea what happened)
when i was ten,
lola had a new boyfriend
he said his name was matt
and he had colorful inks on his skin
i started seeing purples on lola's skin too
i asked her what was that
and this time she wouldn't even look at me
(and i still had no idea what happened)
when i was eleven,
lola had a new one again
he said his name was christopher
and he bought teddy bears for me
every time he picked lola up for a date
but i still had no idea why lola cried
every night as she fell asleep
when i was fourteen,
lola had a new boyfriend
he said his name was derek
and he always sat at the living room
watching how i met your mother
with me for ten minutes while
waiting for lola to get dressed
and this time i never saw pain in lola
(and this time too, i understood everything)
c.a