i forgot to post the cover of the book im writing now t his is like 4 months ol d
anyways im finally off the history chapter and onto the first
which is s flsshback
so itll be a while till its out lmao
but dont worry ill make it sad as shit
it has my 3 fuckin oc's that i barely draw (mirage, aanor, n lovia)
and issbout war n brooms gbless
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also i forgot to explain why iw as acting like a real pussy before lmao
so my dog
the one ive has since i was like 3
killed some of my dads chickens
and he got real pissed.
and u see
i didnt know this
till like 3 am when my sister was like "hhey do u care abt the dog??"
n i said y eA
and then shes like oh...i wont tell u then.
but she crack e d
and so
my dad
took
my dog
the dog ive had for almost all of my life
and decided
h HEY
WHY NOT
BE AN ASSHOLE
AND DROP THIS DOG IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE
AND HE DID
HE FUCKING LEFT MY DOG IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE TO GET FUCKING LOST
AND Y EAH I WAS FUCKING
CRYING REAL BAD
I LITERALLY BARELY MADE IT THROUGH THE MORNING AND I SPENT MOST OF MY NIGHT CRYING
AND SO
I VE BEEN WORKING IN AUDIO AT MY CHURCH
AND MY DAD IS IN THERE
SO I H AD TO FUCKING TRY NOT TO CRY BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT PEOPLE TO THINK I WAS A FUCKING PUSSY AND I KNEW MY DAD WOULD GET FUCKING PISSED
BUT I LITERALLY COULD NOT DO IT
AND LIKE MY DAD SAW ME TEARING UP AND HE
ALRIGHT LEMME SKIP AHEAD A LITTLE
I WENT OUT
FOR SOME AIR
N SOMEONE CAUGHT ME COMIN BACK IN
BY SOMEONE I MEAN A PAL
AND THEY ARE A
ADULT
AND I WAS RIGHT OUTSIDE THE DOOR OF THE AUDIO ROOM
SO MY DAD COMES OUTSIDE
AND STARTS TO FUCKING GET MAD AT ME
HE SAID THAT HE DOESNT WANT PEOPLE GOING AROUND LABELING HIM AS A BAD GUY
AND THAT HE KNOWS WHAT IM CRYING ABOUT AND THAT IF I DONT STOP HES GOING TO TAKE EVERYTHING AWAY FROM ME
S SO IM LIKE OK OK FUCKING GEAH THAT MAKES SENSE I CAN HUST ATOP CRYING THATS HOW HUMANS WORK
BUT THEN HE STARTS TO BLAME ME
FOR HIM LOSING MY DOG
HE SAID THAT I DIDNT DEDICATE ENOUGH TIME TO HIM AND THAT HED BE BETTER OFF WITH OUT ME AND MAYBE IF I DID HE WOULDNT HAVE LEFT HIM IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE TO DIE???????
AND I AGREED
I GOT THAT I DIDNT SPENT ENOUGH TIME WITH HIM
BUT HE DIDNT EVEN LET ME FUCKING SAY GOODBYE
SO I TOLD HIM THAT
AND HE ASKED ME WHY A DOG WHO DOESNT KNOW ME ANYMORE WOULD WANT TO SAY GOODBYE
SO IM FEELING LIKE REAL SHIT RGHT NOW BUT IM NOT ALLOWED TO CRY??? SO IVE BEE N PLAYING LOVE LIVE NONSTOP IN AN EFFORT TO NOT THINK ABOUT HOW AWFUL I FEEL AND HOW MUCH OF A PUSSY I AM
AND I T S REAL HARD WHEN EVERY TIME I THINK ABOUT IT I START CRYING H OLY SHIT IM A PANSY
ANYWAYS KIDS SORRY ABOUT THESE BAD VIBES THEY SUCK BUT IMGETTING A KAZOO TOMORROW AND I PROBABLY WILL FEEL SLIGHTLY LESS TERRIBLE