Still, 19 days to go until the dandelion fade away
|•Cassandrila's POV•|
Nasa Licht Palace na kami ngayon. All eyes on me, nag tataka siguro sila kung bakit ako lang sa Ro squad ang nandito. Puno ng dugo ang buong katawan ko, puro putik at dumi na din ang damit ko. I looked like a mess. Well, my whole life is a mess.
I am walking at the back of a line of all the 777 grim reapers. Sa puwestong ito ay mas makikita ko kaagad kung sino ang mawawala at sino ang hindi. Ang nasa unahan naman ng pila ay ang twin swords ni Captain Kai na naka paekis.
I looked like a mischievous girl without my emotions. Well, I don't have my emotions right now, I turned it off. I hate seeing myself cry while I am here, in front of everybody. Who the hell want that?
Sa tabi ko naman nakalutang ang iba pang mga sandata ng buong Ro Squad. It's a promis that needed to be fulfilled. Sabi ni Captain Kai noon na kung sino man ang mamatay saamin, ay kailangang iwan ang sandata. In that case, their body nay not be here, but their fighting buddy is.
Natigilan ako sa pag lalakad nang tumigil ang lahat ng mga Grim Reapers. Agad na lumipad ako papunta sa harapan, Master Israel was in there.
Agad akong nag bigay galang, nang makarating ako kay Master Israel. Tumingin lang saakin si Master Israel at walang sinabi. Pag tapos noon ay, ibinaling na niya ang tingin muli sa mga Grim Reapers.
"Reapers, follow me." Seryosong saad ni Master Israel.
Bago pa umalis si Master Israel ay, hinalikan muna niya ng bahagya ang sandata ni Captain Kai. Paraan namin iyon para mag pakita ng pakikiramay.
Hindi ko pinansin ang lahat ng mga Licht na bumabati saakin. I still can't process anything that is happening right now.
Kasabay ng paglakad ko, ay ang tunog na nagagawa ng mga sandatang bitbit ko.
Agad na akong nag lakad papunta sa task makers area. Pag dating ko doon, nagulat din sila sa nakita nila.
Normal na sa mga task makers na makita kami na magugulo ang itsura, lalo na tuwing malayo abg nilalakbay. Minsan nga, umuwi pa kami noon na basang basa.
Pero ngayon, iba na ngayon. I got home like a mess, without anyone around. Without any person joking around, eating some foods, or anything. It's just me. No one else.
Agad akong nag lakad papunta sa opisina ni Master Quiad. Kumatok muna ako, at nag kusa nang bumakas ang pintuan.
"Captain Kai, my freshly brewed wine is here—" Master Juan froze up and look at me.
Kinakabahan na pinag masdan ni Master Juan ang lahat ng mga sandata na lumulutang sa paligid ko.
Napahawak sa sarili niyang bibig sa gulat si Master Quiad. "O-Oh my— G-God. Oh—" Humugot muna siya ng malalim na hininga.
Kinakabahang tinitigan niya ako, at binigyan ako ng awang awang tingin. "Cassandrila." Malungkot na saad niya.
Itinuro niya ang upuan malapit sa lamesa niya. Okay, now I need to sit.
Umiling iling lang ako sakaniya. "I can't sit up with this weight, Master." Seryosong saad ko, habang tinuturo ang mga sandata sa tabi ko.
Humugot ulit ng malalim na hininga si Master Quiad. Now he has his own composure on. "Okay, Cassandrila. Kindly report your duty please." Seryosong saad niya.
"Sir, on behalf of my beloved Ro Squad, I am here to report to you what happened."
• • ° • •
AFTER REPORTING everything to master Quiad, I did take a bath and change my clothes. I am only wearing a comfortable dress right now.
Unti unti kong iniangat ang ulo ko, hinahayaang tumulo ang mga luha ko. Kanina ko pa pinipigilan ang sarili ko na umiiyak. I can't bare this kind of sorrow.
Bakit kailangang ganito ang buhay ko?
Now, I am also walking around in this old main hall of the Licht palace. I can't talk to anyone right now. Wala pa si Niamh dahil mayroon siyang kasong hinawakan ngayon.
Sa pag lalakad ko, isang malaking painting ang kumuha ng pansin ko. Madaming malaking litrato ng buong death sibblings na nandito. Pero ito ang pumukaw ng pansin ko. Siguro, dahil siya lang ang babae.
A painting of a very fine lady, wearing a white but fiercely gown and a dandelion in her hand.
Biglang bumilis ang tibok ko, at tila ba hindi ako makapaniwala. Kinakabahang tinitigan ko ang mukha nito.
"Is that me?" Kinakabahang tanong ko sa sarili ko.
"Yes." Bigla akong napatingin sa nag salita.
I felt warmth, and peace as I saw his red eyes shinning with the moonlight. He has his man bun up . He's wearing a very carefree long sleeve showing his collar bones, and a comfortable pants.
He gave me the warmest smile that he got. Pero anong magagawa ko? Tanging malamig lang na tingin ang nabigay ko sakaniya. My tears are still falling.
Hindi na kinaya ng mga tuhod ko. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako napaupo. I feel so weak.
Agad na lumapit saakin si Luxius. He gently lift me up and then carry me into a bridal style.
Napatingin lang ako sakaniya, gusto kong mag salita pero hindi ko naman magawa. I feel like I am the Lira before. The one who can't speak, the one who can't even express her own feelings.
Nagulat ako ng bahagya nang mag umpisa nang mag lakad si Luxius palabas. Agad kaming pumasok sa portal na bigla namang lumabas.
I hold onto Luxius' cloth, not because I am scared to fall. It's because, I want to smell him more. His scent is somehow giving me a comfort that I am safe.
"Tignan mo." Sabi niya. Then there I saw that we are in a middle of a sea. The sun is setting down here.
I was so fascinated about the beauty of the ocean and the sun. The sun looked so good now, and it compliments the ocean.
"Still crying? Hindi ba maganda dito?" Kinakabahang tanong niya.
I don't know. My tears are still falling like a waterfalls. My eyes don't want to stop.
After that he carry me with his one arm like a baby. He looked at me with a worried eyes. He gently cares my cheeks and wiped the tears in my eyes.
"I-I'm sorry for crying. I-I'm sorry for b-being weak. I could've done anything to save t-them." I said as I cried my eyes out.
Luxius, gave me an idiotic shocked face. "It's okay to cry you idiot." Natatawang saad niya saakin.
He snapped his fingers. Now our scenery become more peaceful. It's the flower field that he gave me before.
Pinaupo niya ako sa damuhan, inalalayan niya ako umupo, bago siya nakaupo. He gently wiped every tears in my eyes.
I hugged my knees, and said. "Did you know what happened?" I asked.
"Yes." Mahinahong sagot niya saakin, habang pinag mamasdan ang isang itim na rosas na galing kung saan man.
He gave me the rose and smiled. "Alam mo ba kung kanino galing iyan?" Tanong niya saakin.
Umiling iling ako. Is this the time for me to think about the roses crap?
"Galing saakin iyan." Natatawang saad niya.
"At first, my intention is to scare the shit out of you and tell you that I am serious about killing you—"
Agad akong napaayos ng upo at tinitigan siya, dahilan para matigilan siya sa pag sasalita. "Then why do it now?" Seryosong tanong ko sakaniya.
All this time he always wanted to kill me right? Then why don't he do it now?
Napakurap ng ilang ulit si Luxius at napatitig saakin. "Lira—"
"Call me Cassandrila." Malamig na saad ko skaniya. "Now, answer my question, why won't you kill me now? It's for your own pleasures. Now I'm giving it to you." Seryosong dagdag ko rin sakaniya.
I gave him a cold glare as he gave me a sigh. He looked so worried and sad at the same time.
Pumitas ako ng isang dandelion, at tumayo sa harapan niya.
"All this time I am always worried about you, my own soulmate who wanted to kill me. Do you even know that I just wish that you can be my comfort character. I always wish to every dandelion that I got that,—that you'll be mine. That we could experience love not this kind of duty and war." I said as I slapped him with a dandelion.
Seryosong tumayo si Luxius. He stood up strong and looked at me with a worried face. "No. I won't kill you." Seryosong sagot niya.
I laughed at his answer. "Then you wanted me to suffer more?" Natatawang tanong ko.
"Then! Congratulations Luxius! You just did it!" Galit na sabi ko.
"I can't speak, then you let me speak now I only have 19 days to live. And I wish to spend those days with my friends— My friends died one by one hugging Odessa's gore. I got mixed feelings about you, a murderer who's itching to keel me. Now, you wanted to be a pyschopath who wanted to kill me!" Galit na galit na sigaw ko.
Bigla siyang napahawak sa pasa at sugat ko na nasa gilid ng bibig ko ngayon. I harshly slapped his hand and gave him a glare.
"Now what Luxius? You're showing some affection towards me. Then afterwards what? You wanted to see me,—" Galit na tinuro ko ag sarili ko. "Me suffering with my blood, and staining your hands witn my own blood?" Galit na tanong ko.
"You're supposed to be my soulmate! I know love is not allowed in our world.—Bur—but, isn't that what we supposed to have with each other? I want to experience that—" Inis na napahawak ako sa ulo ko.
I slapped my self and covered my mouth. "What am I saying?" Natatawang tanong ko.
"AAAA!" I screamed as my tears falling.
Luxius suddenly grabbed my whole body and hugged me. Of course I stopped him from hugging me. I move backwards and gave him a sad and scared look.
Luxius sighed and looked at me. "Say, Cassandrila, do you still always think of me as a villain? You will always have that god damn scared angelic eyes of yours?" he asked.
I just looked at him. I don't know, I don't know either. Feeling safe, comfort, and scared at the same time? How should I know?
Nasaan na ba sila Jean? They would keep me more safer if they are here. They would help me put my self under control when they're here.
Napaupo ako sa lungkot. Suddenly the wind started to hugged my. I can feel the cold breeze hugging my bare skin. As well, the cold feeling of sadness is running down through my body.
Luxius brushes his hair and lean towards me. "Who touched your face?" Seryosong tanong niya saakin.
Umiwas akong ng tingin.
"Cassandrila, who touched your face?" Tanong nanaman niya.
"Odessa." Malamig nasagot ko.
"Now, sleep." Sabi niya.
"No!" Galit na galit na umiling iling ako.
"Yes." He said.
"Luxius! No!"
"Luxius, yes."
|•Luxius' POV•|
TINITITIGAN KO ang tahimik na mukha ni Lira. Her eyes looked so swollen now. She's crying all day long. Mag uumaga na, kailangan niyang matulog.
Nag lakad ako sa isang maliit na bahay na nasa gitna ng flower field. I am carrying her im a bridal style, doing my best for her to be comfortable. Hindi pa nakikita ni Lira ang bahay na ito, now she know.
Nang makapasok na ako, agad na akong nag lakad papunta sa kama. I gently put Lira on her bed, and put some blanket on her.
As I saw her laying down, I can see the necklace that I gave to her. "You still have mixed emotions about me? That sucks." I said as I caressing her beautiful soft cheeks.
How can I solve this kind of problem that we had? Bakit ka pa kasi bumalik sa mundong ito? You should be kept being born as a human. This world of us is not yet safe Cassandrila, how can I even protect you? We can't even be together in this timeline that we have.
Nilubayan ko ang pisngi niya, at dahan dahang hinalikan ang noo niya. "I love that you smell like a lavender even when you're exhausted." I said.
Tumalikod na ako, at nag lakad palabas ng bahay.
Paglabas ko ay dama ko na ang malamig na simoy ng hangin ng gabi. Sleeping here won't be bad for her. The first thing that she will saw is a lake and some flowers.
"For fuck's sake! Mira, please look at me the way you did before." I sighed.
What can I even do? She's still mourning about her friends death. I just wish I could turn back time.
"Wait—I can go through time." I said as I remember something.
I snapped my fingers and fixed my self. I let my hair down, and made my death scythe appear.
"Now, I got some business to do with Odessa."