I turned my head slowly to see Mason, I raised my eyebrows and he let go off my mouth. I jumped into his arms hugging him, he held me tightly hugging me back.
"Listen Syden we don't have much time" Mason said pulling back
"What is it?" I asked confused
"Regulus i know you've been looking for him but I've been doing that this entire time I've been gone. There just a bad side to this-"
"Wait you've been looking for my uncle too. Why?" I asked confused
"For you... if there's a chance I could at least get you your family back that's your blood I'm willing to do anything." Mason said lowly
"Your doing this for me, Mason...thank you" I said hugging him again
"There just a problem, there are men already looking for him" Mason said as I pulled back
"Why?!" I asked angry
"There most definitely not death eaters other wise I'd tell them how this works but their this group of people. They call them self Evolution, they are reckless and are not afraid to kill anyone that stands in there way. There made up by a group of people that believe death eaters or people from Azkaban don't deserve second chances. They've even killed someone from the ministry already, they've been after your uncle far more than anyone" Mason said looking down
They wanted to kill my only living family for justice. He didn't do anything wrong, he became a death eater then he regretted it. He had to leave my dad because he was ashamed. I stood up angry facing Mason.
"What are we going to do?" I asked
"First you have to tell your parents that your going to be somewhere else like with...The Weasley's or something. I told them and Lucius didn't like the idea of it because to him it sounded like Regulus was going to take you away from him. That's why he hasn't been around my death eaters" Mason said with an angry tone
"Fine but how are we going to fight them off if we do cross them?" I asked anxiously
"There's a lot of them Syden, a whole army. The ministry is scared to intervene because they know they won't hesitate to kill anyone of them." Mason said thinking
"Would..The Order be enough and death eaters?" I asked him
"They could Work! Except Potter would never agree work by our side. To him where just as bad as my father" Mason said clenching his jaw a bit
"You leave that to me besides...I'm the leader too. If they really care about this they help..except I don't want to bring any adults from The Order in. They've been through enough" I said looking down.
"Agreed. Your going to have to meet me...at this address" Mason said handing me a piece of paper as I nodded.
Then my door began to open, Mason apperated away. He was gone and I'm came Draco, he looked confused not to see me packed already. I grabbed my wand and everything was in my trunk already.
"Alright let's go" Draco said grabbing my trunk
We walked down the steps and out the common room door. I looked up at Narcissa and Lucius who where smiling faintly.
"Hey mumsie I've been wondering if I could stay at the Weasley's it's just...I feel a bit better when I'm there. I feel closer to my dad" I said looking down sadly
I had to sell this off good, Lucius turned to Narcissa. I knew how much he disliked them, I looked up giving him soft wide eyes he couldn't say no to.
"Alright but once you come back to school that's it got it!?" Lucius said giving in
"Yes!" I said happily
"I guess I'll see you guys next week, I promise to owl you when ever I can." I said smiling and walking away.
Draco followed me instead of giving me my trunk, he knew me better than anyone else. We reached a hall where we we're by ourselves.
"Okay what the bloody hell is going on?" Draco said putting my trunk down and crossing his arms.
"Huh, fine" I said taking a deep breath
"Draco I'm going to trust you because your my brother now. Which means I look out for you and you for me, truth is I'm going with Mason to find my only blood relative left. Regulus Black, then in going to get the order together because what where going up against isn't going to be easy." I said seriously
"Syden you can't be serious! Do you know the kind of danger your going to put yourself in. You'll regret it, I've been there for you but I will not risk losing you..AGAIN!" Draco said firmly
"IF you really care about me you will let me do this because he's the only thing my father had left, the only thing that connects me to my dad" I said as my voice cracked
Draco clenched his jaw tightly, he took a deep breath and closed his eyes. He opened them and raised his brows.
"Fine but I'm going to be there" Draco said
"Deal" I said smiling
"Come here princess! You git" Draco said pulling me in as I hugged I'm smiling.
I told him to stay here until tomorrow right now I'm going to meet up with Mason. Tomorrow I'll letter the entire order and I'll have us get together at a location. I was nervous for the most part but I knew I had to do this. I was walking into a battle and the worst part was that my fighting has been getting rusty. I then grabbed the port key that came in the letter of the location. I was standing in a normal house that had color to it. It had wallpaper that had small sun flowers or a blue wallpaper with white lines going straight down. I turned and put my trunk down slowly, I was really confused. I saw Mason smiling at me as he had dinner plates on the table.
"Mason what is this?" I asked confused looking around.
"It's where we're going to be staying for now, there are enough rooms to fit 5 times the Weasley family. Sit dinners ready" Mason said smiling
"No offense but I was expecting it to be...dark" I said smiling in a thin line, Mason chucked.
"Right well this was the only place I could get that couldn't be tracked and was a safe location far away from home" Mason said smirking
"Wait far away?" I asked confused
"Look out the window, I'll give you a clue it's a new state and it's pretty nice to come when it's summer" Mason said leaning against the kitchen counter, crossing his arms.
I looked out the window and saw the beach for the first time. I smiled with happiness, the sunset was beautiful. Then I knew we were in California, in America. I turned to Mason smiling with excitement as he laughed a bit.
"I knew you'd like it besides it's close to the beach and no ones near by at all" Mason said smiling
"It's perfect, thank you again Mason" I said softly
"Syden not only have you been my friend but you remind me or the one person I loved most in this entire world" Mason said sitting down as I joined him.
"Who?" I asked confused
"Well her names was Daisy, she was a muggle born but her..she was just so pure. Everything about her was perfect, her brown hair and soft brown skin. Her green eyes and plumed lips. She was the most beautiful woman I've ever seen...but my mother said love would make you weak. I tried my hardest to fight the love I felt for her but I couldn't..her laugh, smile, cheeks, hands and her eyes where absolutely breath taking." Mason said smiling then it soon faded to a serious face.
"She does sound beautiful" I said smiling at him
"She was a fighter, a lover, and a protector just like you. My mother found out that I was in love and it was with a muggle which made it worse. The day she was gone..I died with her." Mason said as his voice cracked.
I've never seen him like this, Mason was the strongest person I've ever met and the fact that love left him like this made me scared. I held his hand as his eyes watered.
"My mother killed her..but my daisy didn't go without a fight. My mother died before her but...I held daisy's body in my arms-"
FLASH BACK
"Hey! Hey baby! It's gonna be okay stay with me!" Mason said as tears streamed down his face.
"My love...It's okay, I'm o-okay. I'll meet you again...then y-you'll be free..it'll be u-us together. For n-now be there for o-Oliver h-he ne-eds you" Daisy said as blood came out her mouth
Mason's tears falling on daisy's cheeks mixing with hers as she said goodbye to the one she loved most. He held her body in his arms as he tried to hold onto his light. The one thing that gave him Hope to believe life wasn't as horrible as it looked to be.
"I-I love y-you Mason...you'll be f-free one day lov.." the her hand fell from his cheek onto the floor.
Mason sobbed shaking her body as he trembled.
"NO! DAISY! PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME!" He cried out to her as he pulled her into a hug
Her lifeless body on his body that became the same as she left. He screamed in agonizing pain, the thought of never holding the one woman he loved most made him fear love itself. As he pulled her back down to his laps her swore an oath to her. He will never fall in love but he will wait to spend forever with her.
END OF FLASHBACK
I held Mason hand then hugged him as a tear fell down his cheek. Mason was in love and he had that taken away from him by his own mother, besides losing his love he also lost his only parent.
"I'm so sorry Mason, no one should ever love and lose" I said softly
"I want you to know Syden that I care for you and I know you'll take my brother out of the whole he put himself in. He listened to my mother most, he always believed love was weak just like her but I know you'll be his Daisy. I on the other hand will wait till I spend forever with mine" Mason said softly
I didn't know how to respond or feel, I didn't even know if Oliver loved me but I loved him. I turned and saw three plates instead of two. I looked at him confused, he smirked a bit.
"Who else is joining us?" I asked confused
"Well...your Mason" Mason whispered to me
I looked at him confused until I turned to hear footsteps walking down the stairs. I looked away seeing Oliver, ha had black jeans and a black shirt that showed his toned body. I was hurt, even after everything we did he let Daphne touch him. He would have rather chose another instead of me, he betrayed me and I was hurting. I couldn't look at him instead I looked at Mason as we talked about training.
"Again?" I asked
"Yes Syden, I know you've gotten rusty but this time I'm going to teach you to fight without a wand. Use your wolf strength and much more for good use. These people aren't playing bloody games" he said seriously.
"Agreed, anyways I should probably owl the order and tell them about this. Have you talked to the death eaters?" I asked him
"Yes I have but only the ones I trust most, Bellatrix is the most loyal, I've for six of them. I know that'll be enough because there the best fighters I have. I can't have anyone go to Lucius and tell him your here" Mason said eating his food politely
"Right, I know we'll have enough of The Order but I also wanted to add a few more extra that I know would fight. Mason we have to teach them how to fight, I'm asking them all to put there life in danger for me and..the least I could do is make sure they could protect themselves" I said looking at Mason with desperation
"Why do you think you not good enough to be saved?" Oliver asked as I grew angry and stiff.
Even the sound of his voice was annoying right now, I looked down not responding. I swallowed thickly then excused myself before they could respond I walked out the door. I was only three more steps from touching the sand. I didn't want to get my pants or shoes wet. I took them off and put them by the door, my tank top shirt was up to my hips. The air began to blow against my body as I stepped on the sand. It was an a Ming feeling, the sun was now gone and it was dark. I walked further towards the water. The sand was now soaking wet as I held my wand, the water touching the tip of my toes as it went back and forth. I held you wand up pointing it at the water. With a flick of my wrist I was now seeing dolphins made out of a blue light jump out the water, it looked like a Patronus but I knew I couldn't conjure mine.
It was beautiful, the water was luminescent making the water look like it had blue lights in it. It was beautiful, I've never been to the beach but everything was perfect. I just needed to try, just once again. I held out my wand closing my eyes, Draco, Sirius, Harry, Mason, Fred, and...Oliver. I thought to myself.
"Expecto Patronum!" I said loudly shutting my eyes tightly
I was afraid to open my eyes, I didn't want to know I wasn't happy enough. That I've been wronged to much times, I was to afraid. I opened my eyes slowly and just like I expected nothing was there. I felt my heart break. Tears falling down my cheeks.
"It's not fair. IT'S NOT TRUE!" I yelled in angry.
I could see a large Rock ahead on the sand, I gripped my wand angry. I was happy, I didn't need a stupid Patronus.
"REDUCTOR!" I yelled pointing my wand at the rock
The rock blew up into pieces, I was a bit shocked. Then I grew my angry, I pointed my wand at the large rock next to the one I destroyed. Just like in the room of requirements I closed my eyes and through all my anger at the rock. I opened my eyes to see a large amount of magic coming from my wand, like I was giving it my all but I was just angry. I stopped the the spell somewhat rebounded towards me from the lost of concentration. I flew back and hit the sand roughly, I groaned in pain. I looked down to see a sharp piece of the rock in my thigh. The door to the house opened quickly, Mason and Oliver running towards me as I was on the ground. My hair wet as the water it it, my head pounding. The blood running down my leg as I leaned up.
"SYDEN! What happened?!" Mason asked worried
Oliver held me in his arms as I held my thigh tightly. Mason kneeled down and saw the sharp rock.
"I did..a spell and it somewhat rebounded because I lost concentration. My magic has been...stronger lately and I think I just freaked out a bit" I said as the pain on my thigh wouldn't go away.
"Your okay right?!" Oliver asked me as I nodded.
"Alright Syden I'm gonna have to take this out but it's gonna hurt. Then I'll heal it, you'll be fine" Mason said as I grew in panic
"No, no, no, no, I'm fine really! I could walk-"
"Syden shut the hell up and let Mason take it out" Oliver said as I turned to look at him shutting my eyes tightly.
"On three alright" Mason said as I nodded looking away
"Alright One-" I felt a sharp pain and I screamed, I groaned as I looked back to see the rock was out.
"MASON!" I yelled at him angry
"If I did it on three I'd hurt worse" Mason said like nothing
"Stop being such a bitch" Oliver said
"Hey! Don't you ever call a female a fucking bitch around me got it! Or the next thing to come out your mouth will be your bloody teeth" Mason said firmly, I smirked to see Oliver rolling his eyes.
I then shoved him off realizing he was holding me, I didn't want him touching me after he let that stupid bitch Daphne touch him.
"What the fuck you got me wet!" He yelled annoyed
"Oh well go tell Daphne to dry you up" I said petty
Mason helped me up as I turned to see Mason clenching his jaw and fist. I felt the sharp pain in my chest again, I let go of Mason and began to walk by myself. I didn't know he could heal perfectly well, as I walked I felt my breathing getting heavier. I held my chest where the sharp pain was.
"Sy-SYDEN!" Mason come running to me as I fell to my knees.
It was a panic attack, I couldn't breath. I didn't know what was happening, I felt like I was dying.
"Syden listen to me! You need to relax, calm down" Mason said as I had my palms and knees on the sand.
"Syden get up"
I heard Oliver's voice, he was acting like I wanted to have a panic attack. He said it so harsh it made me angry, Mason had his hands on my shoulders.
"Syden relax" Masons voice as firm
It echoed in my head, my heart beating faster. Oliver come up from in front of me and grabbed my arms pulling me up to stand. He looked at my eyes but I couldn't read his expression, I couldn't tell if he was worried or angry. Then I read him, his eyes became soft and his grip loosened. I noticed I was fine but he let me go and walked away.
"No! HEY!" I said angry
Oliver turned around to face me but he had his wall build up again. All I knew is that I was going to break it because was tried loving someone who didn't say it back.
"What is wrong with you! You came to me, you liked me! It's not fair that when I leave myself vulnerable and fall in love with you, YOU go ruining it and shag other girls. Do you know how that makes me feel!? I feel like I'm not good enough, like I'll never be good enough. I've felt like that my entire life and when I'm with you! You are the only one I want to be good enough for! WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY IT BACK!" I yelled as tears fell down my face, I began shoving his chest.
I was now banging it, he clenched his jaw and walked back but I followed. He then grabbed my worst angry.
"YOU THINK I DON'T LOVE YOU! YOUR THE FIRST GIRL I'VE EVER LOVED, THE FIRST GIRL TO LOOK AT ME WITHOUT FEAR OR WANTING TO SHAG ME JUST BECAUSE I LOOK GOOD! You don't get it Syden and you never will, I. Dont. Deserve. To. Be. Loved." Oliver said as he held my worst tightly
"How could you say I don't get it!? I spent years faulting myself for my father abandonment, thinking I wasn't good enough to be loved! Thinking I was a worthless piece of trash. I've done many foul things in my life but I NEVER made someone who I loved think I didn't love them at all. You hurt me Oliver...and I hate myself for loving you" I said crying.
Oliver laughed my face psychotic, I looked at him confused and angry as tears fell down my face.
"You should hate yourself for loving me, I'm a man that doesn't get to love. I've done many horrible things to good people just because I wanted too. Everything I've ever done was so you could hate me, so you could loath me like the monster I am. Do you think I got these scars from playing hero!? No, I got them from killing and torturing people. Each time I sleep with you, you remind me of...how I will never have a family. Children to call my own because I'm a monster and we don't get happy endings like you princesses do. I'm broken Syden and there no fixing me" Oliver said the last sentence as his eyes watered.
"No! Your not broken you've just been wronged so many time that you think you are. You say your this horrible monster but yet each time I'd get hurt or someone hurts me you defend me-"
"Of course I WOULD! I would set this entire earth on fire but I'd make sure that the fire never touched you...because...you would be the one to take out the fire" Oliver said lowly
"You love me! And I love you, why can't we just be together!" I yelled at him angry, for once I wanted something so badly.
"Because I don't deserve you...you deserve someone who's never going to hurt you. Someone like....a Weasley or Longbottom, even Diggory would be fine but I...I'm no good for you" Oliver said putting that wall back up.
"Then I DON'T WANT TO LIVE IF IT'S NOT WITH YOU!" I yelled angry, I couldn't bare the thought of not being with Oliver.
He began to walked away and I went running behind him. I wrapped my arms around his chest holding him as I cried.
"Please! Please don't leave me!" I cried out to him
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Then his chest rose up and down, his breath hitched. He grabbed my hands and put them down. Then he left. I began to sob as I covered my mouth, I needed him to stay. I couldn't handle the sharp pain in my chest, it was a heart break like no other...this was why I was afraid to love. It was a sharper pain than the one Ivan left and instead it burned and made me feel broken..shattered like never before. I turned to see Mason was gone, all I could see was the beach. I could t do it, I didn't want to. I've been left alone, isolated by all but the one person I needed left me. walked slowly towards the water, my feet getting dragged. I'm not going to live if it isn't with him.
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