"She's weird. Tingnan mo nga yung suot niya"
"look at her skirt. Nakakataas ng balahibo sa sobrang baduy"
"And her hair omg.. "
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"Would you please stop fucking around?"
"G-gab.. we were just"
"Go away sluts. leave her alone"
Nung umalis sila, tiningnan ko "siya" .. She's sitting in the grass while reading a, uhh what is this book? yumuko ako ng onti para makita yung title ng book. I guess, napansin niya ko kaya tumingin siya sakin.
I faked a cough as i straighten my back.
"Gab? gabriel right?" i looked at her and she's smiling.
"Wow.. nagsasalita ka pala?"
The smile on her face faded then tumingin ulit siya dun sa book na binabasa nya.. Fuck, wrong move Mr. Alvarez..
"Look, i'm sorry. Nagulat lang talaga ako. 2 years na kitang classmate pero to be honest, ngayon lang kita narinig magsalita"
"It's because you never pay attention to me" she calmly said still not looking at me
Ewan ko pero feeling ko nanigas ako sa kinatatayuan ko.
"Let me ask you one thing"
"uhh okay?" i said then umupo ako sa tabi niya.. pero, di naman sobrang lapit..
"You think guguho na talaga yung mundo bukas?"
I chuckled "Psh, no. Bat ka naman maniniwala dun?"
"Wala lang.. pero what if totoo yun? anong gagawin mo?"
"uuwi, matutulog"
Gusto kong matawa siya sa sinabi ko pero hindi.. Tumahimik lang siya. Tss kaya nasasabihang weird tong babaeng to eh..
"I see.. siguro ako, ganun din gagawin ko.. para di ko na mafeel yung sakit na na feel nung mga characters sa movie na 2012"
"Ano ka ba? di totoo yon besides baki---
"Alam mo, kahit na meron kang earrings, kahit na mukang nag e-eyeliner ka every morning, kahit na nakikita kitang naninigarilyo sa harap ng school, feeling ko, hindi ka bad boy.. i mean, katulad ka nung mga leading guy sa mga nababasa kong love stories"
I smiled hearing those words from her.
Kung alam lang niya, siya lang ang nakikita ko. For 6 years, umikot ang mundo ko sakanya.. Yeah yeah, call me crazy pero i'm inlove with this voodoo weird witch infront of me.
Naging ganito ako because of her. I want to protect her..
I want to protect my angel, my butterfly..
*flashback*
"She has a brain tumor Gab.."
"oh please. you're joking"
"May sakit ang anak ko Gabriel.."
"a-are you fucking serious?" i said then tiningnan ko si Kat
She's sleeping... Bigla siyang tumumba kanina nung P.E class niya kaya dinala ko siya sa clinic. No one dared to carry her. Alam niyo yung feeling na hindi mo alam kung iiyak ka ba muna or magagalit. Gustong gusto kong pag hahampasin yung mga tao sa loob ng gym kanina.. Kung hindi pa ako nakita nung friend nya, hindi ko pa siya madadala sa clinic..
"Yes.. we're flying to America next month.."
Gusto kong umiyak.. Kung pwede lang kunin yung sakit niya at itransfer sakin.. Bakit siya pa? Bakit yung angel ko pa? Bakit God? Bakit hindi na lang yung mga kaklase namin?
Bakit yung girlfriend ko pa?
"Gab, i'm really sorry. You know i cant say no to dad.." she bit her lip as she try to hide her tears.
"I will wait for you.. Hihintayin kita.. Magpagaling ka don, ikakasal pa tayo di ba?" i said as i wiped her tears..
"Yes.. ikakasal pa tayo and you have to keep your promise Mr. Alvarez"
"Let's have a deal, pagkabalik na pagkabalik mo, i will propose na.. game?"
"Are you serious? ang bata pa natin"
"I know pero reservation din yon Ms. Katherine Cruz!"
She smiled then she hugged me..
"I love you Gab.. i love you so much.. and pagkabalik ko, i will immediately say yes.."
I kissed her.. I kissed her as if the world is gonna end sooner or later.. I don't want to let go of her.. pero kung yun ang kapalit ng life niya, then God, kayo na po ang bahala sakanya..
2 years.. i have waited for her for two long years.. I have to say na within those 2 years, twice lang kami nag kausap and yun yung kakarating lang nila don.. after that, wala na.. wala na kong balita kung naging successful ba yung operation niya or what.. pero gladly, i received a text from her dad just a couple of hours ago.. Andito na raw sila sa Pilipinas kaya dumiretso ako sa bahay nila..
I was wearing an ear to ear smile as i open the door of her room. Hawak ko na yung ring na binili ko years ago para makapag propose na ako sakanya.. I am so excited to see her.. to talk to her.. to tell her how much i missed her.. to kiss her..
"S-sino ka? Dad!!"
Parang nabuhusan ako ng sobrang lamig na tubig nung tinanong niya kung sino ako.. Hindi ako makagalaw sa pwesto ko.. I covered my parted lips with my right hand as i cry non stop... She can't remember me? God.. why does life have to be so unfair?
"Gab.. iho.. i'm sorry"
That's it? Hindi ko alam kung sinong sisisihin ko kung bakit ako lang yung hindi niya maalala.. Wala siyang maalala about sakin.. samin.. they said successful ang operation niya pero bakit hindi niya ako maalala? God, eto na po ba yung kapalit ng life niya? kung eto na po yun, kayo na po ulit ang bahala sakanya..
I decided to follow her. Nag transfer ako ng school, makasama lang siya. I can say na i am one of those bad boys na kinatatakutan ng lahat... I have to.. Kung hindi, they will fucking bully Kat.. Ayoko ng mangyari yung nangyari samin nung highschool pa lang kami.. I will guard her.. I will watch her..
"Gabriel.. "
"Tito.. ako na po ang bahala sakanya.. I will take care of her"
"how can you take care of her? ni ayaw nya ngang kausapin yung mga kaklase niya.."
"hindi ko naman po sinabi na kailangan nya kong kausapin para mabantayan ko siya.. just.. just let me watch her tito.. sasamahan ko siya"
*end of flashback*
"Hindi ka pa ba uuwi? Gabi na oh" she said then she smiled at me
"Katherine.. "
"hmm?"
"Can i hug you?"
"why?"
"nothing its just th----
she suddenly hugged me kaya napahawak ako sa dress niya.. I was waiting for this moment.. Thank you God.. akala ko hindi mo na maririnig yung mga dasal ko..
"You know what Gab?"
"what?"
"i think i like you.. you remind me of someone" i smiled
"sino?"
"si Chris.. my boyfriend"
Ah yeah.. i forgot to tell you, she got a boyfriend last year.. Of course nasaktan ako pero slight lang.. Okay fine.. akala ko mamamatay ako sa sobrang sakit nun sa totoo lang.. hindi ako oa pero totoo yung sinasabi ko.. Ganun kasakit..
"Kat!"
She stood up then bigla siyang tumakbo.. nakatalikod ako sakanila.. i don't want to see them..
"Gabriel, thank you nga pala" she said kaya napalingon ako.. they look good together
"Ah sige."
She smiled at me then sumama na siya kay Chris..
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the next day..
December 21, 2012..
"Naniniwala ba kayo na guguho na yung mundo ngayon!?"
"Hindi syempre, kasi kung oo, kanina pa tayo naging abo! *laughs*"
"Pero malay niyo, mamaya!"
"gago wag nga kayong manakot!"
"Totoo yun sabi sa mayan calendar eh!"
"Bullshit ang ingay niyo!" i yelled ... nakakabwisit kasi.. umagang umaga nagsisigawan..
I looked at Kath's seat pero empty pa rin. wala pa rin siya..
Biglang bumukas yung door kaya napatingin ako..
"Fuck! Katherine died!!"
"what!?"
"Kath? sino yun?"
"Katherine passed away guys!"
"Katherine what!?"
"Ano!? sino yun!?"
Hinawakan ko yung collar nung sumigaw na patay na si Kath..
"This is not a good joke. Do you want me to kill you?"
"B-but im telling the truth gab! she died already!"
Napatakbo ako palabas then nakita ko si tito.. yung daddy ni Kath.
"T-tito.."
"gabriel! i am looking for you.."
"tito? nasan si kath?"
yumuko siya kaya napa mura ako.. gusto kong magmura.. murahin lahat ng taong makasalubong ko.. gusto kong suntukin yung pader.. gusto kong tumalon sa building..
"She passed away gab.. I'm sorry"
"w-why!? anong nangyari!"
"I think you have to see this" he said then may inabot siya saking paper..
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To my dearest Gabriel,
Hi, you might think na ang stalker ko. Hahaha pero i broke up with Chris last night.. i don't know pero after talking to you yesterday, feeling ko, ang tagal na kitang kilala.. You know what? i have a secret crush on you.. feeling ko nga mahal na kita eh.. kaso, ayokong magkagusto ka sakin.. which i think is true kasi sino ba namang magkakagusto sakin? si chris? pshh, feeling ko nga napilitan lang sya sakin.. I have a cancer Gab.. and ayokong maging 'A walk to remember' yung love story natin.. so okay na rin na tinago ko yung feelings ko for you .. ikaw lang naman ang ultimate crush ko!
Everytime i look at you, feeling ko nakikita ko yung mundo ko.. I think you're right.. hindi totoo yung guguho ang mundo kasi when i see you smile, parang lalo lang nabubuhay yun.. You are my world Gabriel.. i love you so much.. and i thi
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I found myself crying in her father's shoulders.. she is so stupid.. bakit hindi niya sinabi sakin? bakit ganito? tangina ang sakit na naman. puro na lang ba ganito?
"Too bad hindi tapos yung letter nya pero.. she loves you son.. "
i hugged him .. and hindi na ako nahiya kahit sobrang lakas ng iyak ko or magmuka akong bakla sa paningin ng iba..
I love her so much..
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"I think hindi nga totoo yung doomsday!"
"Hindi naman talaga noh"
"Look at us, we're still alive!"
"oh yeah!"
i smiled at the kids playing around me..
i stared at her..
"you look beautiful my love.."
"i love you so much Katherine.."
for the last time.. i kissed her hands..
"I will let you go. i love you"
12/21/12
i bitterly smiled as i remember the movie 2012..
I think i just lost my world.. It's true.. totoo yung end of the world..
I lost my world.. i lost my angel.. my butterfly..
Have you already lost yours?
--END--
Hi guys, i think hindi naman totoo yung end of the world! Jusko magkaka asawa pa ako! magiging kami pa ni Gdragon of bigbang! Hahaha! Take care of yourselves guys and thank you for reading this! Sorry kung medyo mabilis yung kwento.. kanina ko lang kasi naisip yan :) Anyway, salamat pa rin! God Bless!!
©12/21/12 2012