All In Your Head // C.L

Chapter 26 ~ Phase 1

I dont know what Shelby's getting me into, but I'm sure it'll work

I decide to text Chris to see what he's up to and to get the "plan" going

E – hey man, what are you up to?

C – nothing much wbu?

E – nothing really, do you want to meet up at the park on the corner of Mez's place in 15 minutes??

C – yeh sure dude, see you soon

I then click out of my messages with "Chrissy Boy" and go into my messages with "bby g"
I quickly text Shelby letting her know that I'm meeting up with Chris and I put my phone into my back pocket

I then grab my hotel keys, and wallet, then walk out of the door, twisting the doorknob shut behind me
I begin walking over to the park on the corner of Mez's place where I see Chris waiting there... alone
From the distance that I can see him from, he looks a bit down as I start to get a bit closer to him, I can hear little sobs

Is he crying??

Chris Pov

I just cant believe i let myself fall like that
How could i be stupid?
I promised Mez that i wouldn't do that to her and yet here i am sulking like a little baby because of what she was avoiding me
She deserves better honestly
I think to myself as i can see someone walking up closer to me from the corner of my eye

I saw that it was Ethan so i quickly wipe away my tear stains on my cheeks to not let Ethan notice that I'm weak and soft and have been crying

"Hey Man" he says in a cheerful voice

I give him a fake smile and nod

"hi" is all i say so i don't give any hints away that I've been sobbing for the last 15 minutes, but i think he can already see that

"what's wrong?" he asks, looking concerned

"nothing I'm fine" i lie

I'm not fine
I'm not okay   
I've never really been happy at all...

But then i met Mez,
And suddenly everything changed
I want to help her out as much as possible but she's not letting me in on anything
And honestly that really hurts to know that she doesn't appreciate me

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Before i knew i had tears streaming down my face and Ethan trying to comfort me as my body is shaking and I'm finding it hard to breath

"its okay, just breathe just breathe Chris, in and out" Ethan tells me

I do just as he says and eventually my breathing returns back to normal and my body, less shaky

"s-she keeps shutting me out and avoiding me for no reason" i blurt out as i choke back a small sob

He doesn't say anything for about a minute, he reaches his thin, delicate arm over my shoulder whilst drawing little circles around my back

The silence breaks when Ethan begins to speak

"just talk to her, maybe she'll see the side of thing" he reassures me

"don't you think I've already tried?" i say sarcastically looking up at Ethan

"sorry" i apologize

"its fine" he replies

"i love her, but she doesn't know that, and she never will" i say, staring into the distance

A small smile appears on Ethans face