Addicted: Book One - The Inquietude of Youth

Chapter 128: I ADMIT, I am WRONG

     Gu Hai remained rooted in place; his stature stiffened like a wooden stake. With an ironclad face, he tried to calculate the time, the amount of time...

How long did I do it? Twenty minutes? Half an hour? Or......an hour?

     Regrets welled up in his heart as he recalled Bail Luo Yin's distorted face. Gu Hai then wished he could hack himself into thousands of pieces.

     "Help me hold him down for a bit. I have to treat his wound first," said the doctor.

     Gu Hai returned to his senses and quickly went to wash his hands. When he came back, he did as the doctor instructed and held down Bai Luo Yin's waist. The doctor carefully and gently parted said boy's butt cheeks.

Never once did Gu Hai dare to look any closer. Just from observing the expression in the doctor's eyes, he knew how grave the situation down there was.  

     "In a moment, if he struggles, you have to hold him down firmly, as to avoid getting cut by these instruments."

     The expression on Gu Hai's face changed, "What...he's already unconscious, how can he struggle?"

     The doctor, once again said a string of words that were so painful, it struck at the core of Gu Hai's being. He would rather be dead than breathe a second longer.

     "He will most likely wake up from the pain."

     Surely enough...as expected, when the doctor used a speculum to slightly expanded the rectum in order to sterilize the rectal lining, Bai Luo Yin's suddenly moved for a few seconds. His eyes had yet to crack open when his fingers curled tightly together into a fist. Pain crawled mercilessly onto every inch and corner of his face before beads of finely formed sweats danced across it.

     The pain in Gu Hai's heart thrashed about in misery. He faced the doctor and roared in anger, "Can't you be a bit more gentle? Are you here to help stop the pain or to kill him?"

     The doctor is a lot older in age and being yelled at by a kid certainly didn't make him feel good. His face rearranged itself, discontent.

     "Let me tell you, whichever doctor comes, this process still has to be done. If you think I'm not treating him well enough, you can get another doctor right now."

After his burst of struggle, Bai Luo Yin lost consciousness again. His body now drained of all vitality.

With a pale face void of all color, Gu Hai's peered down at Bai Luo Yin one last time before his hands made contact with said boy's waist, holding down on it. A slight movement in his eyes signaled the doctor to continue.

This process continued on for about five minutes. The doctor tried his best to lessen the movements and be more gentle, but this only meant that Bai Luo Yin had to suffer even longer.

Throughout this process, Bai Luo Yin had awoken about four or five times. And each time, he writhed and swayed about in pain. All Gu Hai could do was hold him down firmly. Even if he couldn't hold him down, he still forced himself to, that was only until Bai Luo Yin fainted again. Afterwards, he would wake up once more. It went on like this until the doctor said that it was done......

It was the same as experiencing damnation in purgatory for the first time.

Tear welled up in Gu Hai's eyes. Tried as he might, but he was no longer able to hold them back. They trickled out of his eyes, travelled down his face, mixed with beads of sweats and flowed down uncontrollably. The strings around his heart knotted together tightly as they gripped the throbbing muscle. It was a heart-wrenching and unusual sight.