Can't Fall in Love Again

Chapter 22

"Piliin mo kung saan ka masaya, turo sa'kin yan ng mama mo"

Jho smiles

"Thank you papa. Aalis po pala ako ngayon" Jho

"Saan ka pupunta?"

"I want answers pa" Jho

JHOANA

I traveled from Batangas to Gesu. Nag-aral kasi ako sa Ateneo when I was in college, pag may problem ako or if I need answers dito ako pumupunta. Naging busy lang kaya ngayon lang ulit nakadalaw

Papasok na sana ako sa loob nang may nakita akong taong nagdadasal rin, nakaupo siya. I can't be wrong kilala ko yung figure niya, it's Bea

Bakit ba kami laging nagtatagpo?

This is not the right time to avoid her, kaya umupo na rin ako sa right column of pew chairs tapos mejo likod, nasa left column kasi si Bea

I pray

Lord, I am so lost. I have sinned many times but this one is different, I became unfaithful to my partner.

Flashback

"Happy anniversary my love. I promise to love you forever and everrr"

"Promise? Forever talaga?" Nico

"Are you doubting me?" I pouted

"Pano kung bigla akong mawala tapos may darating na bago tapos mapupunuan niya yung pagkukulang ko, kasi nga wala ako sa tabi mo?" Nico

"Hindi yan mangyayari"

"Will you cheat on me?" Nico

"Of course not, we'll get married pa diba? We promised each other"

"I love you" Nico

"I love you more"

Present

Hindi ko namalayan na umiiyak na pala ako

I feel so guilty loving her, because I know myself that I already love someone. I want to give her a chance but I can't, there are so much hindrance against us. I want to choose what I think is right, that's why I'm choosing Nico. But is it right to choose him? I need your guidance Lord, I really do

BEATRIZ

Nang matapos ako magdasal ay tumayo na ako para umalis na, nang makita ko na nandito rin si Jho. I see her crying

Linapitan ko siya at umupo sa chair sa likod niya. She's silently crying, hindi siya nagsasalita so I'm guessing that she's praying through her mind

Nang iangat niya yung head niya ay dun ko na inoffer yung hanky ko

Halatang hindi siya nagulat sa ginawa ko, alam niya kayang ako 'to? Maybe

"Thanks pero sa'yo nalang yan" Jho pero nakatingin siya sa altar

"Can I sit beside you?"

Hindi siya sumagot kaya tumabi nalang ako sa kanya

"Whatever you prayed for I hope you got the answer. I hope you feel better after being here, not with me but with God" sabi ko habang nakatingin rin sa altar

"Still no answer, pero sana tama ang gagawin ko" Jho

"He will guide you"

"Why are you here? Looking for answers too?" Jho