Her Savior

Chapter 29

Pinagdikit ko ang dalawang kamay ko, yumuko at pumikit.

Dear God, Jesus.

How are you? Can you hear me? Sa dami po ng mga taong nagdadasal at tumatawag sa inyo ngayong oras na ito, I know you can still hear and listen to each of us.

How is my dada, there? Is he okay? Can you say hi for me, please? Say that I miss him too.

God? I sometimes felt tired and even exhausted to the point I want to end it, but I still thank you for always giving me hope and happiness despite of the heavy rocks that I carry.

I haven't conquer my fear yet pero mayroon nanamang panibago. Panibagong kinatatakutan. Ang mawala sa akin ang dalawang babaeng dumating sa akin.

Am I too fast if I asked you her to be mine? Am I being selfish if I asked her to help and save me?

Jesus, God, I don't know anymore what to do. Can you give me a sign?

Sa pagmulat ko ng aking mga mata, kapag nakita ko ang mag-ina sa aking harapan na nakatingin sa akin, then I'll take it a yes.

That means, she will be mine and can save me from my past, with your help, of course. Hindi naman po ako gahaman, diba po?

I am very happy and thankful that you let me met those two beautiful girls, my father. Miss Harper makes me feel safe always, while Brielle makes me smile and laugh. I wonder what will happen to me if they will leave me. God, knock on wood. Huwag naman sana.

Oh, Jesus! I don't know what to say anymore. Just please take care always to all the people I love. God bless me, and my family, friends, and Miss Harper and Brielle. I love them all.

I did the sign of the cross at pagmulat ko palang ng mata, hindi ko na napigilang mapaluha at mapaupo sa sahig na ikinagulat nila.

You're so fast, God. I did not expect that you will answer my prayer this fast.

Brielle immediately ran towards me and hugged me tight.

"Are you okay, Mommy pretty?" Nag-aalalang tanong nito sa akin.

Tumango ako dito at pinunasan ang luha ko. "Yes, baby. I'm fine." Sagot ko at tumingin kay Miss. Mayroong pagtataka sa mukha nito pero umiwas nalang siya ng tingin ng mapansin na niyang nakatingin din ako sa kanya.

Well, as soon as I opened my eyes, two pairs of eyes were looking straight at me. They're obviously from Miss Harper and Brielle's.

They were sitting in front of the chair where we were kneeled pero hindi sila sa harap nakatingin. Sa akin.

"What happened?" Takang tanong ni Miss pero umiling lang ako sa kanya at ngumiti.

"You okay?" Tanong naman ni Rei na nasa tabi ko parin.

Tumango lang ako sa kanya at nginitian din siya. Pinunasan ko muli ang basang pisngi ko at humarap kay Brielle at hinalikan sa noo.

"You're not mad, anymore?" Tanong ko dito.

"No po. I am not mad po. Nagtatampo lang, because you complimented those girls po na pretty sila, while me and mommy were there too." Eh?

"Huh? Why ba kasi baby? Am I not allowed to do that?"

Narinig ko namang suminghal si Miss Harper na nasa harapan parin at tinarayan pa ako. Pambihira! Nasa loob na nga ng simbahan, nagtataray pa rin?

Umiling si Brielle bago ako sagutin. "No po. Dapat si mommy and ako lang ang pretty para sayo. Diba po, mommy?"