No Love :The Sequel (Completed)

Chapter Seven-Ignorin My Heart

He Looked Me In My Eyes And Said "It Wasn't Supposed To Be Like This"

"Unfortunately Thats Not Your Call To Make...Its For The Best Don't You Want The Best For Me Like I Want The Best For You" I Asked

He Didn't Answer Me

"August You Can't Go On Like This Acting Crazy And Lashing Out..You Work Too Hard To Get Where You Are..Don't Fuck Up The Good Reputation....You Gotta Chill" I Said

And Than He Fell To His Knees And Started Throwing Up In The Toilet

"Its Okay Okay" I Said As I Pat On His Back

After He Finished Throwing Up And Said "Love…Love With Make Ya Sick..And Ya Making Me So Sick"

Than He Looked Up At Me Like A Little Sad Puppy And Said "I Can Change"

And Tears From My Heart That Was Shattering Fell

Cause I Did Believe That He Could Change

But I Had A Ring And It Was Too Late For Me And Him

And Even Though I Was Im So Madly In Love With August

I Felt Like I Was More In Love With Having Something Stable And Serious Even More

I Had Convinced Myself That I Could Make Myself Love Chase

And I Actually Thought That I Make Myself Stop Loving August

I Just Had To Keep Tellin Myself That August Isn't The One Chase Is

Chase Is The One He Got On One Knee He Would Die For You

And For Some Reason I Just Can't See August Ever Getting On One Knee To Propose To Me

Chase Might Be My Only Chance At That Family I Always Been Dreaming Of

I Held August In My Arms Until He Soon Fell Asleep

And Than I Left And Went Back Home To My Fiance

Fiance That Doesn't Even Sound Right

And Early The Next Morning C'amarya Begged Me To Go With Her To My Mother's Grave

And Really Didn't Want To Go But Since It Was The Last Day C'amarya Was Gon Be In Town

I Thought I Could Just Go Along For Support

And Here We Were Standing Infront My Mothers Grave Stone

And C'amarya Holding Red Roses In Her Hand

"Can We Make This Quick.…I Hate Coming To Cemeteries" I Said

"Jordyn You Sure You Dont Have Nothing To Say To Her" C'amarya Said

"Nope" I Quickly Said

C'amarya Took A Breath And Said "Okay Well…Where Do I Start…Hi Mama Its Me Your Baby Girl Im Here Today To Tell You..Thank You... Thank You For Making Me So Strong Willed If I Have Never Gone Through What I Went Through I Wouldn't  Be The Woman I Am Today And Thats All Thanks To You Mama…I Know You Did Some Things And Said Some Things Very Painful To Me…But I Just Wanna Let You That I Forgive You…I Forgive You! And All That Anger And Hate I Been Holding On For Years Im Finally Releasing It By Forgiving You From The Bottom Of My Heart Mama I Sincerely Forgive You" She Said

As She Smile And Place The Roses On My Mother Grave

And Im Just Standing Stuck Staring At Her Grave

"I'll Leave You Two Alone" C'amarya Said Than She Walked And Got Back In The Car

I Really Didn't Have Anything To Say Until I Heard C'amarya Speaking To My Mother Grave Than I Had To Say

Look Down At Her Grave Shaking My Head As I Said "You Know Its Just Like You To Go On And Die Before Fixing Things With Me"

"Looking Back On All The Hurtful Things You Said To Me Things That No Mother Should Ever Say To Their Child,All I Wanted I Ever Wanted From You Was To Love Me,But You Showed Me Hatred Instead,Told Me I Was Ugly..Told Me That Men Would Only Want To Have Sex With Me And Not To Married Me,Told Me All I Would Ever Be Was A Stripper With Dreams" I Said As I Paused And Laughed

"Mama Remember When Said You Wish I Was Dead..My Oh My Mama The Table Has Turned Everything You Said I Couldn't Do Guess What Mama" I Asked Like My Mother Could Jump Out The Grave And Answer Me

"I Did! " I Yelled

"I Made It…Without You Without Anyone!.…Im A Beautiful Woman And I Made Something Out My Self…And I ! Made My Silly Little Dreams Into Reality And I Got A Ring Mama Somebody Does Want To Marry Me Mama I Found Two Men Who Love Me…And Most Of All Mama I Love Myself !" I Said As Im On A Verge Of Crying

"After All The Mental And Verbal Abuse You Gave Me  I Still Learn To Love Myself For Whom I Am..You Tried Your Hardest To Bring Me Down…But Mama God Put Me Up God Blessed Me To Be In A Position Where I Can Pay For Lawyer Fees And School Tuitions…And Your Are No Longer Here To Bully And Tell Me What I Am Not Able To Do.. Because I Did Impossible And That Was Surviving You!" I Screamed

And With My Eyes Watering I Said "And If I Could Survive You!  I Can Make It Through Anything" I Said

I Shed One Last Tear

For What Alll My Mother Put Me Through I Don't Think I Could Ever Forgive Her

As I Was Leaving My Mother Grave August Called My Phone

I Answered It And Said "Hello"

"Come Meet Me At Our Spot" August Said Sounding Very Desperately

"Im On My Way" I Said

I Hung Up The Phone Knowing That This Has To End Between Me And August

After Dropping C'amarya I Met August At Our Favorite Restaurant

He Was Sitting There With His Shades Being Laid Back

I Sat Across Of Him

"All That Shit You Was Sayin..I Know You Ain't Mean It" He Said

I Rolled My Eyes And Said "You Obviously Don't Know Me Than"

"Oh I Know Ya Jay…I Know Better He Can Eva Know You"He Said

I Sitting Quiet Cause I Know Its True

"Ya Love Me..You Always Love Will Me…Na Im Putting My Pride Away And Im Asking Ya As Man To..Don't Throw Us Away" He Said

"Don't Throw Us Away??…August You Started This War..Remember All Those Nights I Cried And Cried Over The Shit You Was Doing All The Hoes You Fuckin! When You Had Me You Couldn't Put Ya Pride Aside And Be Man To Man But Now Since A Real Man Stepped Up And Gave Me A Ring Now You Decide To Step Up!" I Yelled As I Became Furious

"You Know Like I Know Them Hoes Ain't Mean Shit At The End Of The Day You Had My Heart And I Know I Fucked Around And I Know I Hurt Ya…But Its Always Been Me And You Jay" August Said

"Answer This Question For Me August…Be Real…Have You Ever Once Thought About Giving Me A Ring? " I Asked

And He Was Just Quiet

I Shook My Head And Said "Exactly…Have A Nice Life August"

And I Got Up And Left

After All We Been Through He Never Even Thought About Having A Future With Me

But He Wanted To Have A Baby

Well That Wasn't Good Enough For Cause I Don't Wanna Be Just A Baby Mama To A Nigga

I Want To A Man's Wife Eventually