CHARCOAL - ziam

Fri, Oct 21

i feel you whenever i close my eyes.
i remember how we stared into each other's eyes and got lost.
i remember how we talked about our story up until the next morning.
i remember how you stole my blanket and claimed my favorite spot in my own bed.
i remember how you cried over your family problems.
i remember how you wanted to end your life by driving your car clumsily.
i remember how i waited everyday for you to come home so can continue our story.
i remember how i did check my phone every 10 mins whenever i'm with my friends, though you never did the same.
i remember how we broke down together over the same thing.
i remember how you had your first love.
i remember how you watched me cry because my first boyfriend just cheated on me.
i remember how you listened to the songs i write.
i remember how your fingers skillfully played the piano.
i remember how your parents yelled at you.
i remember how we chilled in the same bed.
i remember.
everything we've been through, has done the best in my life.
i understand that everything has come to an end, i just still cant believe that we're over.
just like that.
by you saying we were wasting each other's time.
i just dont believe that you'll be the first to walk out of the page.
i thought it was going to be me. but no. its you.
you cut us apart.
you teared me down.
you threw me away.
and all this time i just realized..
its always been you whos never felt 'anything' was more than 'something'.

—Zayn