I lay here with my eye's wide open he just left but the stupid grin on my face is not going anywhere. Instead I'm in a blissful happiness. Although I know the happiness is only temporary and the permanent is the guilt will eventually catch up with me I don't care. It feels sinfully wonderful. But reality catches up with me quickly. So I stand up stretch and head for a cold shower to calm my nerves. It always starts out as a simple need of want to be wanted. That leads to me letting my life slip so casually where I end up chasing what I need. Enough is enough time to get back on track. Tomorrow, today I will enjoy the late after glow of it all shine. Instead tomorrow I'll change up my life choices tomorrow morning. Sometimes life slips from are fingers so quickly and where constantly chasing for time. Time to enjoy the things that are all around us. So today I will do that enjoy what's all around me. Then when I wake up tomorrow morning I will expe what is and what will never be.