I am a lucid dreamer. I am aware I am dreaming, and can control what happens in them. But every night it's the same dream. It's been going on for over 17 years now. Just recently I've been having what they call "sleep paralysis", which means your mind is half awake, half hallucinating, and makes you unable to move any part of yourself, so you're trapped inside your own body, which feels dead, while your mind goes insane. It's terrifying, and I can't stop it from happening. But that all started to change one night, when my dream wasn't the same.