"I sit here day by day trying to come up with the perfect words to fit my emotions, There's a select few. I type away at my keyboard trying to make sense of the day that just passed. Making sense of how fortunate I am to go through the things I go through And feel the things that I feel. But I cannot do this with myself anymore, It's getting worse. Even on my best days I still just want to kill myself. Make all the pain of yesterday's mistakes disapear. But I have the support of Josh and my friends and family. They are the reason I'm fighting this day to day struggle. I'm a disaster in its most perfect form. I am simply and in all actuality a perfect disaster." -Alex Dawn. Sequal to this story has been posted. It is called Perfect Disasters & Ever Afters GO READ!