This story is a AU were one struggles to realize that he is in love with his best friend, were the other hides his love for his friend, which almost kills him. Warnings?: Smut? NOT CANON! (Yes I do realize that Eddie is happily married, but I like fan fic soooooo, here we are.) I hope you enjoy, some shipping may or may not happen with the rest of the boys, like Josh X Mully. Enjoy!