"Another sob story about an ordinary sick girl" that the first thing that came to my mind when I learned about my condition Death never scared me , I actually always taught of my life as quite boring. I was happy I think , had friend and a functional family but it was just not me . Eat , school and sleep What's scaring me however is leaving my families and everyone that cares for me , knowing that my mum will be heart broken. «I don't that you ever recover from your kid dying, I don't knows what I would do if one of you died" my mom's words keep repeating ever night . I didn't hate the fact that I was sick or probably dying soon I hated that all of a sudden everyone changed their way of acting towards me. So scared that I will break like I was made of glass Every one except him So different , arrogant , playboy everything that I hated but surprisingly and ironically the first one that made me feel alive