I've never had Redamancy. And I don't think I ever will. Redamancy means; "the act of loving in return" I love Jason. But he doesn't love me in return. Therefore this love is one-sided. Redamancy. I try to view the world in Jason's perspective. Everything he does, says and sees is familiar. And that's the way he likes it. He's never experienced something unfamiliar. Because just as soon as he does, he pushes that feeling away. That's why he always pushed me away. Because every time he came close to loving me for a split second, he pushed that feeling away. Anything that involved passion, lust, & warmth, was Selcouth to him. The meaning of Selcouth is; strange, unusual, rare; unfamiliar; marvellous. Just like his love for me.
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