A Ziall story. Niall and Zayn. With some Larry scenes. Includes gay love and self harm. Niall fights everyday with a smile, being in one direction would be the best thing ever. Or so he thought. Once he starts feeling something for someone he never thought he could like more than a friend, he becomes really depressed. How does he deal with these feelings? Does he tell this person how he feels? Or does he keep it all a secret? Read and find out. Please don't read if self harm is easily triggered for you or you are homophobic.