Note: This is a story that is connected with Polar Night; Polar Night and Spring Equinox are the same stories but from different point of views, this one is from Jacob's POV.
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I was standing over Bella’s limp body staring franticly at her eyelids, waiting for her closed eyes to finally flutter open, after being close for the last anxious filled 2 weeks. I have bee in this exact position for probably 20 hours of every day since she jumped off of that stupid cliff. The other 4 hours I reserved for sleeping, eating, and telling everyone that Bella was going to be just fine. Even though I was, and am not, very sure if she will ever wake up. Not sure if I will ever get to stare into those beautiful brown eyes of hers, see her blush whenever I make her smile…that beautiful smile…
Maybe she won’t wake up, maybe I won’t get to stare into her chocolate eyes again, maybe I will never get to see her beautiful pale cheeks turn bright pink with her strong blush. I stared at every inch of her face, trying to memorize every inch of her perfect features before she was gone...
No! I would not think about Bella dying, she is going to wake up and she is going to live her life happily, I will make sure of it. At the moment I don’t even care if she ever loves me, I just want to see her wake up and live her life happily, get married, have kids, become a grandma, and die in her husband loving embrace. I just wish that I could be with her, to be her husband, to be the father of her children, to be a grandpa, and to die holding her in my arms.
I was staring at Bella’s face, imagining our life’s together, when all of a sudden she shook her head. I froze; my mind couldn’t process the thought of Bella waking up. Even though it was what I have been waiting for these last two weeks in this hospital.
“No…!”
I stared at Bella’s lips that had just opened and let her beautiful voice mumble one single word, ‘no’; as her voice ringed in my ears that made me realize that I needed her to wake up. NOW!
“Bella? Bells wake up, please!”
I then saw her face, her expression changed as if she was confused in whatever she was dreaming. I stared at her franticly as I whispered “Bells…please, come back to me, I need you…I love you…” I knew that even if she was awake she wouldn't be able to hear me, not with her human hearing. I examined her expression, longing to know what her mind was thinking. The only thing I saw in her expression was confusion and determination. Then I whispered “Bells…” then I saw her eyelids blink slightly. I stared deep into her eyelids, not wanting to miss the eyes I have been longing to see for the last two weeks. Finally her eyes slowly opened. I sighed at her beautiful chocolate brown eyes. Instead of her staring at me, she stared around the room and flinched. She looked confused and hurt. She looked at me, but still seemed stressed. She stared at the door with confusion, and then screamed “Jake! Where are you? I can’t see!” I could have sworn she had just looked at me. She then lifted her upper body off of the bed, well she tried to. But she had almost no strength so she fell back on her pillow with so much force that it made the whole hospital bed fly up and lock together. That could only happen to Bella. She had the worst luck on earth. But most of her bad luck is caused by her own stupidity.
Anyways I caught the bed before it could lock completely and pushed it back down to its original position. Bella kept staring into space, trying to catch her breath, as she appeared to be thinking hard about something. Kinda like the face you get when you fall asleep after lunch, and then you wake up not knowing if it is the next day, if it early morning; you simply don’t understand what is happening to you. I kept staring at her, analyzing her every move, afraid that she would break at any second; but then i heard a creaking at the door and the footsteps of a man walking quickly, i turned around to see a man nurse walking with a needle towards Bella, he then looked up at me and sighed; this man has seen me stand here next to Bella for the last few weeks and he was either sighing with pity or frustration of seeing me sulk here every single minute of every single day, but i didn't care, I was too concerned with the fact that the love of my life was laying in a coma for weeks without any sign of coming out of it...until now.
Bella then sniffed, calling my attention back to her, I saw that she looked even more confused than before. Why she was acting so weird? Then the horrible thought came to mind, what if she had amnesia.
Then she would not remember me, or what we have lived together, how she figured out I am a werewolf…she would forget Edward. Then she would not have to suffer, not have to feel guilty for loving me, she would admit her feelings for me!
But I couldn’t think about her being hurt, the joy of seeing her awake overtook my worrying.
“Bella! You’re awake! I’m so happy. I didn’t know what to do. I thought you were dead. You
were barely breathing. Why did you jump off that damn cliff? What the hell would make you
try to do something like that?”
Before I could continue talking she spoke.
“Wait a second, Jake. First I need to see Renesmee. Where is she? Tell Edward to bring her.”
……What? What was she talking about, who or what is a Renesmee? There went my theory
of amnesia, she remembers me, and she remembers that filthy bloodsucker she…loves. But
there is no such thing as a Renesmee. It sounded like some French or Latin name or thing.
“Rinezmay? What is a Rinezmay?”
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