I kept replaying mine and Jason's kiss this morning in my head. I was sitting on Carter's bed not wanting to go anywhere. Just sit on my boyfriends bed and hope that it was all a dream and have him waltz in and kiss me. I stared at the wall in front of me thinking of when, where, and what the next letter was going to be about. I was so confused, why did I feel like that when I kissed Jason? He's just a friend, nothing more. That's all he'll be. Ever. I slowly got up and walked over to the door, opening it a crack and peering out. It was dead silent in the house. I opened the door fully and stepped out of Carter's room for the first time since I arrived. Still in a pair of his boxers and a shirt, I padded down the stairs and walked into the kitchen. I opened the fridge and searched for something to eat. Finding nothing I closed the fridge and sat down at the mini bar suddenly not feeling very hungry. I'm not sure how long I say there just starring off into space but it was long. I heard the door open and I heard a masculine sigh and somebody shutting the door. I saw Asher walk by not noticing me at all tears streaking his face. I got concerned and just watched silently feeling tears come to my eyes thinking about what I've done and how much I miss Carter.
"God why me?" I heard Asher whisper.
I slowly hopped down from the bar stool and I moved away from the kitchen to peer into the living room to see Asher with his head down in his palms hair covering his eyes. Though I could see his tears clearly.
"Ash?" I started
He quickly wiped his eyes
"Kat, I didn't know you where home." Asher sounded surprised. Glancing at me.
"Ash, what's wrong, what happened?" I asked slowly sliding onto the couch next to him.
"I'm scared Kat. Carter. He's my best friend. I'm scared.." he cut off his voice catching a little bit.
I rubbed his back in a slow circle. "I'm terrified ash, I don't know what to do. These letters are frustrating and If Carter's only the first to get hurt. Who's next?" I trialled off
"Kat, we need to think. Where would the next letter be?" Ash looked at me his eyes puffy.
I stood up. Walking around the coffee table to stand in front of the large flat screen before me. Staring at my ugly reflection of mascara and eyeliner running down my face, hair frizzed everywhere, a bit of blood on my collar bone and cheek. I spun around. "My house. It has to be there, can you drive?" I said snapping my fingers
"corse I'll drive, I'll be in the car when you're ready." Ash got up and walked to the door. I jogged up the stairs and walked into Carter's room grabbing my phone and then walking over to his closet to find a pair of my black uggs. I slipped them on and ran down the stairs and out to the car. The warmth hit me as soon as I stepped outside. Walking over to ash's car and opening the door slipping inside and doing up my seat belt.
"well don't we look stylish." ash raised an eyebrow looking up and down at me.
"what can't I grieve in my boyfriends shirt, and a pair of his boxers with her uggs on?!" I questioned
He put his hands up defensively. "just saying" he shrugged and pulled away from the house, traveling over to mine.
We reached there in ten minutes without a word to each other. Stepping out of the car. I walked up the driveway to my door and grabbing the door knob. Twisting it I walked on followed by Ash. We slipped off our shoes and shut the door.
"Where should we look first?" I questioned
Ash shrugged. "It's bound to be here somewhere. Lets just start looking where it could be."
"sounds good." I replied. I turned to the stairs and slowly walked up step by step. Reaching the top I turned towards my room. Walking towards the closed door
