Hey readers! It's Julie! This is a true story okay? The guy in the picture is Justin. His full name is Justin Allen Tintle. My name on here is changed to Sadie Hollar okay? That's actually my best friend's name(: Hope you enjoy!
We were just laying there in the grass, listening to each other breathe. His soft brown hair blowing out of his face from the wind. His beautiful light brown eyes were staring up at the sky. Justin's strong firm hands we locked between mine as we cuddled together.
Tomorrow i was getting on the plane to fly to Lubbock Texas where mom expected me to live a happy, normal, non-cutting life. How could i live a normal happy life without Justin being in it? I've literally already given him my whole heart. I love him.
He turned over and smiled at me. "I love you." He whispered. I smiled and closed my eyes and cuddled up beside him. Wrapped him arms around me and kissed my head.
My phone buzzed meaning i had to leave. We stood up and started walking out of the forest towards my house. I wasn't allowed to be seeing Justin since he used to cut himself, and mom thought he was a influence to me. I didn't listen and still loved him.
As we were almost out of the forest, he had to leave. He turned me to face toward him, showing him the tears running down my face. He gave me a sad smile and wiped away my tears with his thumb.
"Don't cry, love." He said and cupped my face in his hands and lightly kissed me.
I was 5'4 and he was almost 6 feet, so he had to really lean down to kiss me.
"I love you so much-"
"No, don't say your final goodbyes. We are going to see each other again. We have to. We are." He said and smiled down at me.
I gave him a sad smile and nodded. He kissed my forehead and hugged me tightly to him.
"Just know that i'll always love you okay?" I said against his chest.
I heard him chuckle. "Alright love, and you think the same thing about my love for you."
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That night i dreamt about Justin and I walking in the woods holding hands, but all of a sudden, something pulled me away and he was left standing there. Alone. With tears in his eyes.
I woke up that morning with the feeling that i had deserted him. I got up and grabbed the knife from underneath my bed and started to cut my wrist. Blood started to slowly come out. I grabbed my sissors and started to cut my wrist more. It sounded like cutting paper. . I sat down on my bed and started to slice my ankle. I got a small towl and held it underneath my ankel and wrists as the blood started dripping. More blood came out and i wept quietly on my bed.
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As I landed in Lubbock, I started to quietly cry thinking about Justin.
I reached in my jean pockets and pulled out a picture of him. (Picture on side >>>)
I put the picture to my heart and wiped my tears away. I put the picture away as i saw mom waiting by the baggage claim.
I smiled and took my bags from her, not even hugging her. She gave me a sad smile and put her arm around my shoulders and led me to the car.
As we started to drive to the new house, mom looked over at me and smiled.
"Your really going to like it here sweetie."
I didn't even look at her as i nodded and put my headphones on.
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First day of school. Yay. Im so excited. *Note the heavy sarcasm.
I put on my makeup which consists of powder, heavy black eyeliner and mascara.
I took and deep breath and climbed into my mom's car.
As we pulled up, without even saying goodbye to her, i got out of the car and into the school. Every 8th grader had to go to the Gym and wait. And wait. And wait. And wait some more until that stupid bell rings which "allows" us to go to our 1st class. Yay.
As I was sitting there, a group of fake blond's walked in, eyeing me weird.
"Is she emo?" "I don't know she dresses like it." They said as if i couldn't hear them. I rolled my eyes and pulled out my book.
A couple of more people walked in and sat down next to their friends. I looked up when people walked in, but no one really caught my eye... Until one certain guy walked in and stood against the wall.
I looked up to see a boy, about my height, with greenish blue eyes and medium brown hair just coming a little below his eyebrows. He had very full lips and had a few freckles on his face. He was wearing normal dark blue skinny jeans and a Zoo York T-Shirt. All of the other guys either looked like total nerds or looked like football jocks. But not this boy. There was just something different about him. Not just because of the way he dressed or looked; but just his aura. Something in me told me he was special.
I just couldn't look away. After what seemed like a couple of minutes, he turned and looked up at me.
Holy crap! Holy Crap! I quickly looked back at my book. Out of the corner of my eye, i saw him smile and keep staring at me.
I blushed me crossed my fingers, hoping for a good day at school, and that maybe, just maybe, something good will happen between me and this boy.
But yet... I still wanted Justin. To have him hold me. To have him comfort me in a time of need. To have him cup my face in his strong hands and tell me he loves me...
