Sometimes I feel like fabric,
That piece of fabric that someone didn't hem.
Now the edges are freying,
And I'm falling to bits,
Unraveling, so very, very quick.
My life has been one of mistakes and despair,
Only little sparkles of light that float through the air.
I don't know where I'm going,
Nor where I've been,
I know I've fallen into something,
Yes, I've been sucked in.
I can only think back to a young childhood story,
'Alice In Wonderland' and all of it's glory.
I am the new Alice,
I've fallen into the rabbit hole,
Why am I here?
Am I dead, alive?
Inbetween?
All I'm afraid of is the Queen,
The queen of hearts,
The one in the story,
Who will she be?
Will it be bloody and gory?
I'm afraid for my life,
I threaten it myself,
I in myself, am bad for my health.
This is not good,
Not how it's meant to be,
Now watch me die,
Suffer and bleed.
Again I'm unraveling,
Things are becoming foggy,
I'm losing my grip,
On all of reality,
Where am I now?
I have no clue.
About this odd place,
I've been sucked into,
I am neither here nor there,
I am not everywhere,
Who am I looking for?
What am I doing?
My life is a mess and it's really quite tragic,
What I need now is a miracle... No! Magic!
But magic never existed,
Only in those stories,
My life is now gone,
Only left is the thread,
Again I say,
OFF WITH HER HEAD!
Now as I lie,
Soundly in bed,
I'm drifting away,
Like I'm on some sort of raft,
In the middle of the ocean,
There's quite a draft,
The window is open,
My soul flies right through,
Into the wind,
Over the soft morning dew,
I see my mother,
My father,
My sister,
They're mourning my death,
It was all so very sinister.
The way that I passed,
Was not of the ordinary,
I told you, my life was unraveling.
Listen to me next time,
I will never say it again,
My lips will be sealed like the mouth of a mime.
I told you once,
I will not tell you twice,
I was unraveling,
I pleaded with you,
I begged for forgiveness,
But all I had left was my necklace I held,
The key to my soul,
In the shape of a cross,
It was given to me,
On the day of my birth,
It easily became,
My most favorite thing on this earth.
All I had left was this gift I was given,
He never knew it was coming,
Not this quick,
Why did I unravel,
So fast and so silently?
The mockings that taunted me,
They made my life terrible,
So bad to the point,
Where it was unbearable.
I could not stand it,
And I no longer have to,
For my earthly home,
Was only my halfway house,
I no longer needed it,
I no longer wanted it,
This place I was born,
Was a hell hole, I knew it.
I was hoping they'd miss me,
Be sad or discouraged,
But maybe someday,
They'll remember me for who I was.
I'll say it once more,
But then I must go,
I'll say it once more,
In a hushed sort of tone.
My.
Life.
Was.
Unraveling...
