Chapter One
Have you ever had a feeling of wanting to die? Well I have, I am Alyssa... Alyssa Black I had the perfect life I had both of my parents I had a brother. So what would drive a teenage girl to want to kill herself? One word... bulling. It was the worst and if it would not have been for Riley then I probably would have let myself jump without a second thought he helped me through it.
It all started when I got an email from some girl at my school they were popular and rich I mean I was rich but I just did not want to show it off like the rest of them. The email that I got from the girls really hurt me. So much so it made me want to hurt myself. It said
Dear Loser,
Why do you even bother with living you are worthless and a wasted of space you do not deserve all of the stuff that you have. You do not even deserve the family you have why don't you just do us all a favorer and die. Then the world will be a better place without you.
Love, Kelly
While I was reading this I wanted to die I was going to show it to my mom and dad but all it would do was make it worse. I thought that maybe it would all go away if I just left it alone and did not tell anyone about it. So I just went to bed and ignore the email I just got because I am too scared to do anything else. Getting the email really worried me and got me thinking am I really a Wasted of space, a disappointment to my family. I don't think so but I could be wrong about everything and the email was just people trying to be mean to me for no reason. *The Next Morning*
"Alyssa... time to get up your going to be late for school." Mom said
"I have been up for hour's mom." I say
"Ok well come down for some breakfast." Mom said
"Ok I will be right down." I say
I love my parents and my brother but sometime I don't think that they get me I think the only person who really gets me is Kyle my best friend since elementary school. He has been by my side ever since he is the hottie of our school, he is the caption of the football team, and he is dating this girl named Melinda who is caption of the cheerleading squad. Strangely enough we could almost be like twins but she is a good friend of mine.
"ALYSSA... nock, nock I am coming in." Kyle said
"KYLE... you are coming into my room why?" I ask
"Because I can and I have seen you in just a towel once." He says
"I know and you never let me forget it." I say
"Do you remember when I tried to take it off of you? It was fun." He says
"For you maybe but not me I had fighting you to stop and let it go." I say
"Ok are you ready to leave Melinda is down stairs waiting for us." He says
"Ya let's go to sooner this day is over the better." I say
"Hey what is wrong?" He asked
"Nothing... nothing just got an email and... never mind let's get to school." I say
"Show me this email." He says
"No it was nothing Kyle let's just go please." I say
