Peered Into Pressure

I Thought This Was America- Chapter 1

Who was I to even think I was somebody I thought as a saw the boroughs move across my eyes. There was'nt much I knew about Queens, for all I know i can have the worst experience ever. What if the kids dont like me?  What if im too different? Well there's only one way to find out. 

I ran up to my new room, it was plain as blank piece of paper. Its nothing Im used of, all my life there was something on my walls and for a change theres was nothing. I had a nice comfy bed. It was soft as clouds when i  jump on it. I started to stare at my celling and think about my future. I wanted to sing so desperately, but I had no one to produce me. No one really knows this about me, for all my life I just have been considered a normal teenager that has no dreams, no ambitious. I thought about all the people that let me down because they didnt believe in me. They didnt think that i could make something of myself. My mind wondered for it seemed hours but really it was 20 minutes. My phone vibrates and i jump up out of my relaxed state of mind and  im back to reality. I look at my phone and see that its my best friend Keisha. She said: Girl where you been? I miss you alot and your missing alot. Call me asap. I dialed her number and waited for her voice. I put my head back on my mattress and listened to the phone ring.

"Mina! Oh My God! I have so much to tell you did you know that Jessica is pregnant with Darryl's baby?!" She yelled in my ear. I almost screamed because of her voice but the situation just mad me upset.

"Are you serious?! After all that we been through is he really going to do that to me?" I said with tears about to fall out of my eyes.

" I thought you two broke up what happened? what didnt you tell me!?" she said concerned in an angry tone.

" we did but then he asked for a second chance and I said yes. But we kept it on the DL because everyone was in our business. And do you know I almost lost my virginity for that him. I cant believe this. Im going to call you back.

"But.." Keisha said as I cut her off. I dail that number faster than my heat beat. I sat up on my bed getting ready to lose all of my mind. I listened to the phone ring, ring ring...straight to voicemail. I called again, same thing happened. I called one more time and I finally got an  answer. 

" Are you fucking real?" I yelled.

"what are you..." he said.

"how the hell are you going to just..." my mother comes in my room and Im stuck between two worlds. She gave me that look like her daughter just died.

"how am I going to what?" he said unpatiently. I hung up the phone. 

" Mina! you know how I feel about that language in my house, now give me your phone. And do this room. I want it dont by tonight or you know your punishment will be longer."

"But mom, dont you ever have the need to just tell someone how you feel and words that arent  enough?" I said hoping she would understand.

"You sound dumb now give me your phone." she snatched it out of my hand and walked out of my room. Then she came back and slammed the door. I sat on my bed in shock. Everything was finally going wrong and I didnt even start school (which is tomorrow). I cried my eyes out and wished that I didnt have strict parents. I wish they didnt care as much as they did about stupid little things. I got up with tear still in my eyes and did my room. I had alot of stuff to do. Next thing I know it was dinner time and know my dad would be upset as usual.

As we sat the table Im waiting patiently for the food to be done.My mom brings out the last piece of food and we all bow for grace.My mom looks at me sarcastically and says"Mina why dont you say it". My brain dies as I think about something good to say.

"okay, um...thank you for this food today. Amen." I open my eyes an see the entire table staring at me. For all my life I was never fit to say grace for the food. I swear I dont know why my mother does this to me. So I just grab a plate and begin to eat. Everyone continues along with me. I felt so unsteady at the table and I was trying to swallow and chew in that order. Then my dad stares at me.

"Mina, so I heard that..." he begined with a scrolling tone. And before he could finish 

I was choking on a fish bone. I push my chair back to continue choking with my head down. I look back up with my face red as an apple with my hand on my neck. I grab my glass of water.

"so anyway Mina, would you like to explain to me why do I have your phone?"

"no" i said as a finished swallowing my water. After I said that i grabbed my spoon and began to stuff my stomach with rice.

"excuse me young lady your going to speak" he slammed his hand on the table. I swallowed my rice and lost my appetite. 

"I cursed okay!" i said with an attitude. I was tired of hearing that it was wrong to speak your mind. I mean this is America is it not? I got up and went to my room and slammed the door. Im not going to be bothered with this crap. I'll just make own money and get me a phone. I looked in my closet and picked out a sexy outfit my parents never thought I would have in my closet. Its time for me to do me, tired of listening to people that got a problem with the way I breathe. I laid my head down and dreamt about a new day.