Childhood Bestfriends with Hollywood's Golden Boy

Childhood Bestfriends with Hollywood's Golden Boy Part7

Chapter 7

Recap:

I took a deep breath in and out.

He's your best friend.

You have to stay immune.

You can't let yourself think about him this way.

I slowly peeled off my wet; food smeared clothes, putting them into the sink and turned on the shower. I stepped in and let the hot water beat down on my body as all my thoughts swirled in my head.

Was I ever really immune to Ari?

............................................

Immune?

It seemed, if my body had anything to do with it I wasn't.

But if my head had anything to do with it I had to be.

The hot water continued to rain down on me, slicking my hair to my face.

And all I could see was Ari's face as he told me I was beautiful.

His alluring crystal blue eyes, his slight dimples appearing on his clear tanned skin, and his mega watt Hollywood smile revealing his white teeth .... As he smiled at his best friend.

His best friend for who he only harbors platonic feelings.

I sighed, smoothing my hair out of my face and lathering it in my vanilla scented shampoo and conditioner.

Why doesn't that feel like enough anymore?

Maybe it was the time we spent apart ...It just felt like everything was the same but there was this minor earthquake between him leaving and coming back. Or a tremor so slight I hadn't noticed that it shook the foundations of everything that I thought we were... Everything I see.... everything I feel....

After I shampooed and conditioned my hair I turned off the shower, grabbing a white fluffy towel from the rack and wrapping it around my body. 

I stepped out of the shower onto the soft blue bathroom mat, and wiped away the steam covering the long mirror my mother had insisted I get, to reveal my face.

I smoothed back my wet hair and examined myself in the mirror.  

Clear skin, dark eyebrows I had to painstakingly pluck into shape, my long angular face with it's strong bone structure which I felt made me look slightly severe at times.... my green eyes that are my only redeemable feature on what I consider my otherwise very normal face.

Face it Isabel: It's a completely and utterly generic face next to Ari's Hollywood- leading man material face.

I took a deep breath.

This is my best friend who just happens to be a Hollywood A-list Actor.

THE new hot Hollywood A list Actor.

If I told him about how I feel and he tells me he feels nothing I would destroy everything and I could lose him. Or he would think I had become like one of his slightly stalkerish fans that drool over him whilst professing their undying love to one of his many film posters.

I didn't know what would be worse.

I felt my whole body tense at the thought of not seeing or speaking or being with Ari ever again..... It had been hard enough in the months we'd spent apart.