my heart hurts heavy guilt weighs on me as i wear your shirts thinking about you erupting into anger outbursts
this mind is a curse inevitably being loaded onto a hearse still obsessing over the fact that you were hers yet my feelings are never detered
sooner or later this anguish has to end, right? or will i eternally put up a fight against the plight of these times crying and severing ties with somebody who used to be mine
wasting my tears because of fears instilled in me by the one who hurt me for years hindering my potential careers steers me deeper into a void where nobody hears
neglect of my meds is self-destructive but somehow i feel content with my head being isolated from reality of how we will never wed
these behaviors i engage in seem to be directing me backwards instead of turning the next page waiting for a release from this cage ive been trapped in for ages
the sound of your heartbeat makes my heart flutter yet you tear me down myself unable to formulate a comeback without a foolish stutter
i hope you find it in your heart that i am a piece of art one to be left untouched but somehow im in pieces torn apart from your verbal abuse from the start
