4/1/14
11:49 p.m.
my day was bittersweet.
i woke up, oddly, but barely, motivated.
i said barely.
i woke on time. i showered, too slowly.
i brushed my shitty hair with a shitty comb and painted my shitty face.
my aunt drove me to school, poorly hiding her sadness.
i told her to have a good day.
like that makes her day any better?
manners are bullshit.
i laughed and smiled at school.
and i hardly even thought about that asshole.
hardly.
i flirted with a younger boy. i hugged him after school.
then i went to my best friends house.
ran errands.
thought too much.
then, we went to eat.
blah, blah, blah.
i got home.
my dad was waiting on the porch for me.
he doesnt trust me.
fuck him.
he told me to sleep in the grass.
he told me i turned out shitty.
thanks daddy.
im in bed now.
MY BED. not the grass.
11:59.
i miss him.
and by him i really mean a lot of people.
i feel like throwing up my forbidden dinner.
