Stop complaining
I know you have a lot of stress
I know your life isn’t full of success
But have you seen what you’ve done to me
While I fight to not cry, with this heavy pressure on my chest?
I try to lift the mood, maybe joke around
But my attempt is instantly drowned
You snap at me like I’ve said something of high disrespect
Your harsh words make me feel like a reject
Then you have the nerve to ask, “what’s wrong?”
I wanna tell you, but in my mind it sounds like a pathetic song
So the words are stuck in my throat
Until I can rant to somebody and let them keep my sanity afloat
When I’m finished, I read them like a map
The expressions on their face say, “I wonder how long it’ll take this girl to snap”
Honestly, I wonder that too
Because patients is not something I already knew
Its funny how when your not on my mind I’m instantly happy
Going around acting all sappy
I have a burst of energy
Making me dance with a lot of glee
That is just sad
You’re neither a friend nor a lover
You’re family, so I should never feel that anger
I should be excited to feel your warm embrace
But sadly, this is not always the case
There are times when things are alright
But just one action can make that moment take flight
Sometimes I wonder if I’m wearing a mask
When you wonder about me I feel ashamed that you have to ask
I love you with all my heart
Although that feeling is way stronger when we’re apart
Maybe I should just go away
So that love will not leave, but forever stay
YOU ARE READING
My contradicting heart
PoetryI've been really stressed and I needed to do something about it so I can finally sleep in peace, so I wrote this