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July 12,2014
Dear Anna Todd,
First of all, it’s been a privilege for everyone who supported me for reading After for years and I am so glad that I am here sitting in the couch with my mom using my phone and with my brother using my laptop (lol.) and with me as I said sitting in here with circle of thoughts was flooding and going on in my head and I just don’t know what to say even though I’ve always planned on talking to you for a very long time ago. And now I just can’t believe that I already have the opportunity to write this and I am very grand. Really!!!!
So, before I start, I may introduce myself first lololol.
Heeeeeeey, I am Rouchelle but you can call me Jem atleast lols. But you can call me Ariana Grande as well but I if you only want to but I would love if you call me Ariana Grande because that would make my heart melt like a very solid iron and I know that you’d love being sweet and even though you didn’t try to be one, you still are and you will always be.
I am twelve and turning thirteen this Thursday which is in 17th of July ayeeee!! I am so glad or more than glad even or uhm grand I may say that I am not the only one who loves and fancies After so freaking much in here. ((Philippines))
Anna Todd, Anna Renee, Anna, Todd, Renee, idk but I can call you many names as well as pet names like Babe, baby, sweetie, dear, darling, sweetheart, heaps and bae. They said that Bae means poop as well as Ansel Elgort by posting a picture on his instagram that Bae is a Danish word for poop but I won’t and will never regret saying that I called you my Bae lolololol.
Well, then, if the meaning of Bae is really poop then you are the most amazing, most beautiful, prettiest, cutest, most gorgeous, sweetest, lovable, smartest and so many good things that can be found on a POOP like you.
Back to the story, I only just turned twelve when I started reading After and I am so confused about everything that was going on in between them like Tessa cheating on Noah and Harry being an asshole all the time when he’s around with Tessa then the other time he’ll be like the very nice and good man who can’t even break dishes lol. But then I started loving them as much as they love each other to the moon and back and never going back lol wot (Well, before I even start to read chapter one, I already love it lol)
I just love you so much when Harry told Tessa he loves her but she was so choosy and it annoys me so much but then I got disappointed when he takes it back (ughhhhh). But you got my heart again when Tessa chose Harry than Noah ohmygafesd. ((THE FEEEEEELS))
Well, I really do love you even though you did not update or you thought that you didn’t make so much effort into that chapter (even though you did). But, anyway, I wrote all of this all the way up because I wanted to express my feelings to you and I wanted to tell you how much I really do love your books and you more than wifi omg that’s not even normal if you ask my friends and parents and I really do hope and pray that you will someday realize that.
Back to the story again, I hate it when Harry was so moody all the time and I have always wanted to ask you why are you always letting Harry and Tessa fought and I just realized that I am in no position to tell you that because it wasn’t even my story and that I am just a fan of it!! But, now I also realized that it is so good for them to fight anyway because that caused them to learn and realize so many things like Tessa found out that because of his love for Harry, she didn’t realize that everybody was getting involved, she’s hurting someone just to be with Harry and most of all she did anything for Harry but then she just ended up always hurt. In the other hand was Harry, he learned not to be an asshole, he learned that drinking beers cannot help with his problem and he has learned so much more to be nice to others and not just to love himself but that was when they already broke up for the hundredth time. (lols)
Sooooo, why am I even here right now while you reading this? Well, well, well, I am here to ask you a few questions because I don’t want to feel like I am Hazel Grace, well, I already feel like I am Hazel Grace because the book cannot end in the middle of a sentence and I’m laughing at myself when I am thinking like this. Ohmygdawdf.
I love you, Anna Renee Todd and I am so awkward writing this, I don’t even know if I will make you smile or something that’s why I am nervous as hell but I really do hope that you will like this one bae!! Xx
Omg!!! I just wanted to know what happened to Zayn and that girl who’s similar with Tessa he met and the girl who married Liam like who is she??? I am thinking that she is Danielle I don’t know but I really think that is her lol but I’d also love if it is Sophia, I mean she’s pretty nice, why could someone hate her.
So yeah if you only notice, Anna. I am looking forward on doing such a thing like “lolololol” when it is actually just a simple “lol” oH I got it from you omg because I really do think it was cute and yeah when I am the one who does it, it was never cute lols.
I also found out that it was so cute when you are always tweeting any kinds of emoji to express your feelings and really, it was so cute omg.
Ugh. It was so late at night like five in the morning in here while I am busy writing this when I need to be up in two hours. Woah. I’ll be back, Anna dear. I love youuuuu <333
July 13, 2014
Hi, Anna!!! Omg, Im screaming wooooooooah, I stalked you and I just found out that one of your favorite book is The Mortal Instruments and The Hunger Games. I really thought that we don’t have similarities and I am so happy when I found this thing out.
Well, so as I continue my message, I was just going to tell you that I love it when you are always so cute when you are posting “”Author’s Note”” in the end of the chapter. I don’t know but I really like it.
I remember when my friends were always telling me that I am becoming weird when I started reading After and I wanted to do everything just for them to shut up but I ended up being nice because I don’t want them to think that I got it from the story (like hitting or punching them in their jaws which is true. Well, Harry is the only one who’s doing that though) But, to be honest, I really don’t like it when they’re being like that, I mean they would always tell me not to read it again and I feel like they’re not even supporting me I mean woah there, they are my friends?!
And, omg can you please just let me be with Harry (even though I won’t) I mean you have Jordan anyway. (lolololol)
But, Anna, you really became my inspiration and so on. Before I start reading After, I never did like reading books before because I thought reading books were so nerd and uhm weird? And I really thought that it really was boring so I didn’t even try to do it. But then, I decided to make a wattpad account and my life just began.
Your book became my sunshine and I was so proud of it, proud because Harry which is my moonlight (because even though in my darkest days, he was still in there. He was always in there) is one of the protagonist and also Indiana Evans (Tessa) which is one of my girl crush and I am so proud of myself that I didn’t send hate to Tessa I mean, she’s the only girl that I shipped with Harry besides me of course.
I remember that time when I need to get be in school for five in the morning but your book ruined my life so I had to stay up all night just to read your book. So, this things has to happened like I would read After when I got home from school at one in the afternoon to six in the evening to eat dinner then continue reading it when it was already eight thirty (dinner and taking a bath includes in there) then I would be reading it until four in the morning and when I can already hear my mom from the other room (because my mom is the one who wakes me up because I am not really used into it when I am using alarm clocks to wake me up on time. I am so different with Tessa), I would turn off my phone and pretend that I was sleeping and that is just my life I suppose.
I also remember that time I cried all day because you quote tweeted my tweet and I am so thankful to larry because they’re the reasons why you noticed me like I saw your twitter username on my timeline and I planned on questioning you some things but larry thing really appeared on my mind and I decided to ask you if you ship larry and I scroll down through my timeline and when I got back to my interactions, you were like “no lol” there were so many usernames appearing on my screen which is like spamming me (even though they are not and would never do that hA) And, they were all like “The queen has spoken” “YAAAASSS!!!” “We don’t have similarities in shipping people” and then I just found myself under my bed sheets crying because I really can’t believe what happened that time and I really want to believe myself that I am just dreaming. It took me half an hour to cry and roll over my bed sheets before I started thanking and spamming you and you followed me.
You were a very nice and a successful woman, Anna! I can’t even thank you and tell you how much you and your book changed my life. I am so thankful that I have read After because I started to read so many books, not just After of course but it is my favorite wattpad story.
I remember that time when i used to cut my wrist everyday because I can’t deal with my family problems, everyone was so annoying (for me) I feel like they all hate me, they were all yelling at me every time I have done a wrong simple thing and I am so done with it and that time I remember when it was New Year’s eve and my mom wasn’t in there, my dad only and we are celebrating it in my auntie’s house which is across to our house. (lol) And, I realized for once that they all love me, they were hugging me and you know that feeling? I mean that was once in a life time for me and I am okay that time but then I still ended up cutting my wrist because my dad scolded me for whatever it is his problem. I am always okay for them.
As you said, “The worst part of being okay is that, okay is far from happy. Okay is that gray space in the middle where you can wake up each day and carry on with your life, even laugh and smile often but okay isn’t joy. Okay isn’t looking forward to each second of your day and okay isn’t getting the most out of life. Being okay is what most people settle for, myself included and we pretend that okay is fine, when we actually hate it and we spend majority of our time waiting to break out of just being okay.”
