A flickering flame
gives me the faintest light to see the shadows that encircle me
I put out the light
Afraid that these shadows too may hurt me
Clearly Im losing my sanity
For how can a shadow do me any harm?
I lay on my bed
Tossing and turning
Sleep far from me
It evades these tired eyes
Eyes that have seen enough trouble during the day
Eyes that covered the sadness borne in me as I walked the earthly streets
Dont be deceived
Behind these brown eyes
A storm of tears is brewing
The tears start to roll down my cheeks as I sit up straight in my bed
Yes I have just accepted the fact that I cant sleep
I sit alone
In a room enveloped in darkness
I cover my eyes with my hands
My hair falling down to my face
A familiar gesture
I can feel the tears tingle my skin
A sensation that Im used to
A sensation that Ive grown to live with
A sensation that feels just right!
Yes I am losing my sanity
For how can crying feel right?
I re-live the day that just passed
Looking back at my every step
My every move
The fake smile i put on my face
The eyes that faked a gleam just so people could think Im alright
Im ok
That nothing is wrong with me
Living a lie
A life built around a fake appeareance
Yes
I have created a bubble of fake smiles around me
Yet deep inside
Im hurting
Maybe I like being hurt
Perhaps this is my portion till my dying day ....
