"You scared?" She asks me.
My head turned to look at her. Her jaw was set, fists clenched, having a look of indomitable determination in her eyes as she stared through the window.
She looked strong and unbreakable.
I took in several deep breaths. The last one came out with a slight shake.
"Yes" I admit.
Her mouth twitched a little. Her smile seemed artificial, rather sophisticated. "Well, we all are" she said.
She ripped her gaze off the window to look at me. Her ocean-blue eyes locked on mine. Her face was genuine.
"Mother once said that courage is knowing how to hide your fear" I said, though I didn't completely know what it meant. But I felt that it was the right thing to say.
And it was.
She nodded slowly, looking wistful for a second. "Yes. Yes, she did" She said. "and she was right"
And with that, any warmth I could see in her eyes earlier was nowhere to be seen, replaced by an amount of coldness and cruelty that I never thought I would see on her face until this very day.
She touched a hand to my bruised cheek. "Let's go" She mumbled.
Turning away from me, she grabbed a gun from a table and slid a handful of bullets into her pocket. She walked out of the door and I feared she may never walk in again.
Outside, people were all ready with their weapons , sheltering behind a hill, waiting for the right moment to start firing. The air was still quiet and peaceful with nothing but the sound of soft shuffling footsteps.
I look out of the window, then at the green ribbon in my palms.
Ash-had an la elah ella Allah, wa an Mohammed abdoh w rasoloh.
I'm supposed to go out there and stand and fight. But I feel so weak and useless.
I remember my parents. They wouldn't have hesitated for a moment. I remember the day they died so vividly as if it was only yesterday.
I close my eyes.
I see mother tieing a ribbon around her head, holding the weapon in her hands,smiling as she hugged us tight. I was too young to understand, but I saw the tears in her eyes, the fakeness in her smile, felt the slight shake about her hands, but neverthless, saw she looked strong as a boulder, and as brave as a soldier.
Who she was.
She walked away and, little did I knew, she was not coming back.
I hear a bang. I see her blood slowly soaking her veil, her weapon, her back. Her last words were "Ash-had an la elah ella allah wa an mohammed abdo wa rasoloh"
I see my father back in Rabaa Square five years ago. Back at the time, their only weapons were their voices. I see a huge tank walking over him. My heart twists in my chest and heat rushes to my cheeks. I wince at the agonising memory.
I open my eyes.
I set my jaw and holding the ribbon up, I tightly tie it around my head. We're all ought to go back to where we've come from. I let my hands drop to my sides. I'm scared, but I won't let it stop me from fighting to the last minute.
I take a deep breath. My breathing is steady and calm, but behind my lungs, my heart is drumming wildly. I repeat the words as I cross the room to join the others.
Ash-had an la elah ella allah wa an mohammed abdo wa rasoloh.
I say it over and over again so I never forget. At any moment now, we'll start fighting. At any moment, I may leave this world. And I'm ready.
For those who were killed and tortured just because they refused to live as slaves.
I pick up a weapon and a handful of bullets.
For those who wanted a better world.
I take one more deep breath.
For those who were brave enough to stand for their rights. For those who believed in changing fate and ended up meeting their own.
I stepped outside. My steps are steady and decided as I walk to the huge hill and take my position.
For those who watched injustice being practised right before their eyes and pretended to be blind.
I won't be one of those.
I squat, crushing grass beneath my feet. Any minute now.
I suck in air through my nose.
And then I hear a bang.
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The War
Historical FictionWhen the warriors of Rabaa demanded their rights, when the syrians found the abundant strength in them, when the palestinians stopped crying and got to action, the world backed down. Copyright 2014 © by a_bookgeek