How can I see when the world stacked against me. Covering my eyes never allowing sight.
I didn't notice
When everything gets rough
I stop
Stop caring
Feeling
Living
I didn't notice
I stared looking for reasons to shut down
A reason to say what the fuck and give up
No one stands on my side
So I see why I stop
But what I need to do
Is live for me
I'm the only constant
And now I see
When I thought I had an army
I turn to see no one
My reflection runs
And people spit
Why talk the talk when you never planned to walk it
I try to run when I can barely crawl
Each time ending with me falling
New scars and loss
New reasons why not to care
But why fight when no one believes
These voices in my head never helped
Always turning against me
Never letting me be me
Never allowing me to live free
Always having to play by the rules
Walk a strait line
Threw the darkest of tunnels
But I'm tired of this game
It's become all to familiar
Seeking for a meaning
Hiding from the truth
Tired of coming up empty
Who makes these stupid rules
Who say the sun must rise
And the waters shall be blue
I'm tired of being lost and confused
Stuck in a tiny box
Never to break lose
Not being able to take a compliment
All ways reading to far in
Into the unknown
Getting lost in my hateful thoughts
Telling me I could never be
Someone who is free
Never allowed to speak my mind
Always following someone else line
These voices are becoming a pain
Never allowing me to sleep in peace
Always demanding attention
Trying to drive me crazy
No one knows the real me
Who I could truly be
I'm actually quite witty
No where close to a dummy
But everyone is quick to judge
Make one mistake
And your done
No one cares who you could be
Just what you've done
They stop listening
Never truly caring
But they don't know
It's not what you did
But how you over came it
I fight to live
Even when it seem I'm lost
I keep breathing
Cause it's the only thing I can control
Why give up
When that's what they want
I've never been fair
Always hard on myself
When ever I try to loosen
Things seek to crumble and fall
Leaving me surrounded
To pick it back up
I thought you where suppose to be at my side
Stand threw it all
Even when it's not nice
It's harder to fight when the world's staked against
I don't have time to keep wondering why
Someone once told me
Life's to short to be sad
So why keep waiting around for you to recognize
See that I could be someone big
Making everyone know my name
Screaming in inspiration
But of course these voices tell me other wise
Say I'm not granted nothing close to fame
Never going to be a saint
Always falling
Never allowed to stand
But when I finally awake
And my back bone becomes straight
I'll truly see
Beyond this lonely face
The true eye of a lover
Someone who was never truly lost
But just finding there way
Hell is like a maze
Always twisting and turning
In unknown ways
I try to look forward
But the past forever chases
Teasing and screaming
I was never meant to be
That I'm a loser and a dummy
But never really knowing
I'm a person like you
Flawed in many ways
So before you spit your hate
Try to listen very close
Because in the end
We all aren't saints
But have sinned many sins
And still we all remain
Whole as a society
And broken as a nation
And one day we will figure
It has less to do who we were
And more to do with who we are
I'm losing me inside my head trying to fight these voice within. Who are you to keep denying me peace beyond these hidden seas. Cause I'm losing me inside my head never going to see things within. Always standing against. Losing me inside my head
