Esor laiceps ym(read in reverse)

A relationship is like a rose. How long it lasts no one knows....

We started out as enemies. he was the reason why i fell off a tree. he was conceited, egoistic and a jerk. i was hapless that i know him. but my impression change when he help me one time. i didn't know that i had a red stain that time. he lend me his jacket and wrapped it around my waist, so i can hide away the stain. for exchange i gave him chicharon and buko juice.i didn't know it was his first time. his expression was sweet! it made me roll on the floor laughing so loud. but he didn't mind me, continued eating instead.and from that day forward, we became friends though we quarrel a lot. then became bestfriends. we almost spent all of our time together.

Love can erase an awful past. Love can be yours, you'll see at last...

A week before our school's Intramurals, his firt love return. her name was Kristine. she was beautiful, smart, almost-a-perfect girl.she was the one who helped him overcome his trauma when he was 6 years old. they spent almost all their time togethr, like we used to be. at first  i understand since it has been years since the last time they saw each other. but later, i was confused because of my emotion. to distract myself, i hang out with jake. my closefriend/ex/his bestfriend. one time i'd tell him about how i feel, and he said those unexpected words: " you love him". those words bother me, to the point that i hadn't slept well thi past 3 nights. until i figured it out and Jake is right. but i won't tell him since he was MY BESTFRIEND AND THAT WAS ALL.he never look at me like he looked at kristine.and the most ironic part was, he asked me to help him court kristine. during those time i was crying, my heart was bruised and bleeding.only Jake was there to comfort me. one day he asked me what is a perfect date. that was also the day i give up my idea of dream date. but before the date, Kristine talked to me. she wants me to stay away from me. she figured out i loved him. i told her i will after the big event. i want to escape from pain. during the night, there's no one to sing. holding all my gutts i presented my self and sang WHEN YOUR GONE. i know i'm such an idiot for singing that song, but i can't help myself. that's how i felt. before the song end, i'd hear him giggled, when our eyes met he mouthed me the words THANK YOU.i also saw Kristine smirked at me. so this was it, this was the end. I stole one more glance, before i ran away in pain....

To feel that love, it makes you sigh to have it leave, you'd rather die...

It's been 2 weeks since that incident. it also been 2 weeks that i keep my distance. whenever he tried to talked to me, it's either i ignored him or talk coldly. one time he asked me if he did something wrong. he even said he misses me. my heart was shouting" how can you be so numb?! why can't you feel my love?"i anwered as coldly as i could,'cause i know any minute from now, my foolish tears will flow. I must forget how i feel, because only riot will it bring.i can't bear to loose him.

I hope you've found that special rose,'cause you love and care for the one you chose....

one day after 3 weeks of ignoring each other, my lil' brother was sent to the hospital. i was afraid, his condition's bad and my parents were not around. i almost called him, but good thing i came back to my senses. instead i called jake. jake helped me rushed my brother to the hospital.after an hour, my brothers condition return to normal.THANK GOD! i was in the middle of my meditation when someone loudly entered the room.HE is here. i could see the sincere concern in his face. i was happy at the same time sad. he bringed Kristine with him.seeing them the pain i tried hard to hied and forget returned. i couldn't help myself, i know that if i wouldn't get out of this room as soon as possible, i will cry so i rushed outside. i didn't know that he was following me. he grabbed my hand and make me faced him. he asked me what's the problem.i composed myself and answer as coldly "nothing" without looking."if it was nothing, then why are you crying?! I'm your bestfriend! you should've called me, instead of him!" he nearly shouted. i was furious."do you know what's my prroblem?"i said while crying"you! you were my problem! how can you be so numb?why can't you see my love?i glared my him. i could see that he was surprised and confused."can i have 2 request? act as if you don't know me....and forget everything you had heared." i was about to walked away but he grabbed my hand. i know that if i kept doing this, remembering him..i will be the one to suffer....so i shove his hand...and walk away

I've found my rose at the right time of my life, but fate took him and it was the goodbye...or so i thought

After that incident i never talked to him nor looked.good thing he heared my request. i must move on. i can do it. i could feel the bruised inside my heart starts to heal. there were times people told me that he was acting strange lately.he almost failed all his subjects and that was not like him. jake even told me he saw him drinking ever night with in our school's perimeter.good thing no one sees him. i almost talked to him, but if i know that if i do my heart will be at stake. it was almost Christmas vacation when jake invited me too his farewell party. he will migrate to London with his family. he wanted me to be his last dance which i gladly accepted. that night i prepared: dress,heels,dress and make up. when i arrived everyone was present, i didn't know jake invited "HIM" and the most questioning part is that, he always stares at me. the night was great. eveything was almost perfect, but my heels broke.i lost my balance and fell on the pool."HE" helped me, wrapped the jacket of his tux around me and cupped me into a lover's carry. when we were almost outside, i told him to put him down. i can manage myself and return to Kristine. he replied he can't and i saw that he was serious. he talked to me, staring directly into my eyes:"give me a 2nd chance,give me your heart. i promise to take care of it. i'll never let you go, i can't bear to set you free".i struggle to set free and walked away, confused.. from that day on he courted me. after 6 months of courting, i answered him.'cause i know i still love him.we were 1 and a half years now..still going strong..but our Faith was put into test..i found out that i had Alzheimer's disease..the doctor said that i will be lucky to survive for 2 years. each day passes, my memory starts to fade away but i maked sure i wrote it in a notebook. one night he surprised me he was outside of our house singing the sweetest song:

                                I wanna make you smile, whenever you're sad; carry you around when youre arthritis is bad..oh..all i wana do is grow old with you....

          then he kneeled infront of me:"i promised before that i'll take care of you're heart.and i will keep that promise.i don't care if we have only 6 months left....I promise to love you...forever..

and now i finished reading this notebook to the stone tomb infront of me....i didn't know why did i did it...how can i read...why am i here...who i am...but somehow i know deep inside, this person lying infront of me was the most special person of my life...})i({