Behind this smile

You have no idea what's behind my fake smile. I've been hurt so much I don't trust anybody I never let anyone into my mind. My mind is so fucked up it will haunt you at night. I'm officially broken . The love of my like was token way from me. You've Left the shattered heart scattered across the floor for the Unwanted ones to pick up. I cannot be fixed. I Don't want to be fixed. Being hurt is safer than being happy.. Being hurt means you can't get hurt if your already..
I don't want you in my life. Why should I have you in my life if I'm just going to lose you. The love of my life was torn out of my arms. I screamed for Mercy ..none was shown. Revenge is best served cold. Leaving me all bruised up and hurt. Knowing what's in my mind so you leave all the razor sharp items near by so u can finish the job. I've hit rock bottom 3 years ago. Behind this smile is the girl with the thoughts of hell. No one must enter. Behind this smile is your worst nightmare.