this is backwards rad 2nd paragraph first.
IN my last sentence i was saying : On the subject of my non intended sarcasm , I started searching for ppl like me on the Internet. I saw results of autism and being diagnosed with autism as an adult. I am not a label and box person so I didn't recieve that too well. And won't claim that if it's so. I don't feel i have this however their experiences and encounters were so similar and relatable. I also read a 'high functionality autistic" something like that but i only looked all this up because someone pushed to my limit. Not say "You're not normal" I know I don't grasp the concept of normal either i just know I'm not it, and it's not me. I am ok with it. I guess some of us we're finding ourselves. I want to start removing ppl who made me feel like this person did
I'm just gonna start by saying I've always been "weird", "different", to other ppl once they get to know me but initially my appearance or their aesthetic attraction to me is what draws them in. I'm used too it. Ppl have also told me im too "sarcastic" when I wasn't being sarcastic 😶. It's just alot of misunderstanding. Lately I've been feeling underapreciated, taken for granted. (I make lots of typos so of I'm taking a while to type it because I'm fixing them.) Recently the love scene and dating has come.... and although ppl see me and think I'm "date-able" If that's a word..... I don't feel I'm cut out for it. I told different individuals I'm not what they think and I hated love. They seem to think they can 'fix' it for me....everyone has their story I don't want overwhelm you with mines there's so much I could say. But one particular individual made me feel really bad about myslef, I just look in the mirror sometimes and think I'm too pretty for this. On the subject of my non intended sarcasm , I started searching for ppl like me on the Internet. I saw results of autism and being diagnosed with autism as an adult.
