My story, My mistakes, My broken Heart

Dec, 16th 2010

Dear Journal,

I did something stupid today, something that I knew I shouldn't have done a million times over, but I am me and I do things without thinking. I think this could be a good decision I mean I have at least known him forever, but kissing him for fun and to make my family mad was one thing, but staying overnight with him, kissing him when it was just us watching movies in his bed, this could be a mistake. I don't know where else to go though. I can't stay at home Bryan needs his space right now, and I understand if I want to keep my roommate and big brother I need to go away for a few days. Staying here, staying with Mike, is probably not the wisest choice I have made, but at least here I know I have a shoulder to cry on, and I am safe. I am not ready to forgive my family yet, I know I could have stayed with them, but after how they re-acted and there own fault in the whole ordeal I am not ready to go back to them. Mike has always been there for me.

Was kissing him, sleeping in his bed that is not bad, we will just be friends who kiss on occasion there is nothing wrong with that and I would trust Mike with my life, I have known him since I was a little girl, and we have always had chemistry between us, I mean I think I kissed him for the first time when I was 13 on one of our 4- wheeling trips, and I still have his sweatshirt from a camping trip a few years ago. He is 8 years older then me, but that isn't a big deal, I am 20 I am an adult now my family can't tell me who to date and who not to date, I like Mike, we are going to just be friends, and I am going to stay her until Bryan is calm enough that I can go home. I just hope that Bryan will forgive me for turning to Mike I know he doesn't approve but I can't let him make all the descions for me, he is my brother, my only family pretty much but I need to do some things on my own, and Mike is one that I am going to go for, this could be good or bad but it is what it is, I will at least have some fun for now right? and I know me it will never go further then a human pillow and kissing, I won't let it.

Always,

Bre