Your The Monster I Love

I was so idiotic and blind. And didn’t see you coming from behind.

I admit I was mean, but that’s only cause I hadn’t seen.

I only saw your little mask. You took it off and came at me.

Fool, i was. I drank the flask, letting the poison overcome my body.

You pecked away at my soul. Just to leave a big gaping hole.

I tell you I really do care. I never meant to hurt a hair.

I have said sorry. But you still just brush me off.

You have also said things that just made me scoff.

I am not the idiot you speak of. I am a person you hurt.

I see that we have both hurt each other. Just to hold knifes at one another.

I still go to sleep crying. In my life of hurt.

But i know your just sighing and burying me in dirt.

You say you have forgiven me once. Nonsense you have been a b'tch since we met!

You say I’ve waged war! Well then I’m ready and set!

I said sorry over the phone for you, you insolent s'ut! You wouldn’t even look at me!

All you are is a d'mn mutt! A silly girl who just can’t see!

Oh but don’t look at me! Ever your friends side with me!

Ironic how I called you a b'tch. That’s what you acting as.

But I should have said witch. Who is worse than a spaz

I am calming down now. The hurt and pain subsiding.

Yet you expect me to bow! I would rather kill you now!

You say grow some balls! Pfft, I say stop acting like a shark from jaws!

You act like you got spunk. But b'tch I know you aint krunk.

All I know now is that your just a punk.

Your still holding that knife at me I see. Well get it away from me!

Why do you think I’ll spin you in a web? Why do you think I hurt you on purpose?

Who said that you’re not over reacting? Who said I mean to harm others?

Oh but does it matter now? You’re a beautiful monster. You are strong and mighty.

But alas, your pride will fail you. You will fall to your knees.

I can’t believe I hadn’t seen till now. You act all innocent. 

Just to jab your prey in the back.

My heart pains. And I am hurt too.

You have left me burned. But my dear, I’m stronger than you.

You want to kill me? Oh dear your planning my demise? 

HA! You can’t even take a poo without your mum. Oh, and Dear?

I’ve planned yours multiple times.

You think I’m an evil person. Wrong. I’m really a nice one.

One who you have hurt. Only people like you see this side of me. 

You say you were wearing that silly mask. But why is it I saw it coming?

Maybe your just not that good at picking prey. But oh one day.

One day ill have my say. 

I don’t know why I’ve tried to mend the broken. I have no clue.

I just know I did it all for you.

But now all I do. Is stomp on the pieces.

I snicker at your pain. And wait till your life ceases.

I’m just waiting till you run out of breath. Hell, heres some meth!

Yet I once loved you. Until your emotion spewed.

I know I’ve been mean. I wish you told me sooner.

I have to admit I hadn’t seen. The pain that you had felt.

Here take my skin, it’s my sorrow in a pelt.

I saw what you wrote. I knew it was about me.

i wish I could have fixed this. I know i crossed the line.

But did you really have to go and stab me in my spine?

Oh forget it. What’s done is done. And have you forgotten?

Have you forgotten about me? About our laughs and fun times?

But then again you said you have hated me from the start.

Too bad you didn’t just go straight for the heart. 

I’m left here withering in pain. Still trying to keep sane.

And I understand your anger. You have every right.

I just wish i could have rewound time and changed the past.

Or at least cover it with a soothing cast.

Can we still be friends?

Can we even make amendes?

Just take a moment and look above. See that cloud it looks like a dove!

Just know that.

Your The Monster I Love.

[Authors Note]

Sam, if your reading this, I am truly sorry for hurting you. I am a bitch, a jackass, and anything else along those lines. I made the true mistake of saying what ive said to you. I lost a friend, a friend I should have held on too better. You were one of the first people to kindly greet me to the new school, and I was glad to find a friend. You say you were wearing a "Mask" but I think that is untrue. I think your venom is pain, but... where did it come from when you first stopped talking to me? What really happened? Who pulled the strings behind the shroud? Was it me and im still unaware? I AM a fool. A disgrace to the human race I would say. Im just sorry for hurting you... If it makes it any better, atleast you can say, "I'm stronger now".

On other matters... The song on the side is a song that was in her Ipod.. It was the only song I knew that she had.. haha.....  And also, sorry for a lot of depressing things!