When you don't know who you are.

"Time will repair itself," No, time cannot repair it self, you may get better but you will never forget.

Words hurt no matter what. Jokingly calling your friend ugly, fat even a slut. Little things like this make me who i am today. What you would call "A hostile bitch," Fuck you bitch i'm not hostile. And if i was it's because of your patheticness calling all this. At least have the decency to say it to my face, make sure your legs are closed before you mention mine.

I am Jessica Redwood. I seem happy around my family but i'm not. No one knows me not even me. I was balemic at the age of 14 to 15. I couldnt eat anything. I couldn't control it. I would vomit everything up. I hated my self. My parents didnt even notice. I would burn my wrists with hair straighteners. I felt like pain would let my anger out. It didn't.

I have been getting bullied my whole life. Everyone thinks im a freak but no one even knows me. I used to have a best friend, Luke Royals. Until i was 13. I liked him more than a friend. When i was 6 we would sneak out into the tree hut late at night and watch the stars and talk about our feelings for eachother. He promised we would get married. On my first day at school i was waiting at the bus stop crying. I was 5 years old and this 6 year old boy came over and held my hand and told me everything will be okay. He had brown hair, short but a long curly fringe, tan skin. And a personality to fit. I loved him. I was waiting for him at school with Renee at the bench at lunch time. He never came. He wasn't even there. He never made it to school. He was killed that morning in a train railway accident. He was in the popular group. Everyone adored him, and i was exactly his second half we did everything together. Ever since he left me things have never been the same. Everyone hated me. Called me a slut. A 13 year old a slut really? I was suicidal. Everything changed

-------------- should i carry on? No this has nothing to do with my life just bored haha---------------------