I hate being lonely. Today I spent the entire day seeing people be lovey dovey to each other and it just reminds me that I have a lonely life. People around me don't like what I talk about, or what I like. I just want someone that won't leave me for other people. But there isn't a person like that. Being alone is something that I've grown with. I don't know how to make friends unless someone introduced me, and even than, I can't hold a conversation without being awkward. I've never had friends. I can't trust well. I'm never trusted. So I just pull away and shut everything out. Being alone has become something that I love and that I hate.
