My Sirius Infatuation

The Black Lake

Dear Mum,

School is going great! I have excellent grades in all of my classes aside from Divination....I've never understood that class. This school year is going by very fast. The Gryffindor Quidditch team has been undefeated so far this year! The captain says I'd make a great keeper... I'm not so sure. James Potter is the seeker this year again. He is still as amazing as before! By the way... I was wondering, can Sirius come home with us for Christmas this year? Things aren't going so well for him at home and I don't want him all alone at the castle for Christmas. 'Tis the season of giving, right?

I love you lots,

Lucy

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Sirius Black is one of my best friends at Hogwarts. He is nice, sensitive and generous on the inside, but on the outside, he's a jerk, a repulsive jerk. I swear, he was always either hexing someone, or snogging someone he doesn't know in a broom closet.

I have had feelings for Sirius since I first met him. I've never really thought of acting on them, but even if I wanted to, I just don't think I would be able to build up enough courage to tell him. Sure, he's my all time best friend, and I love him unconditionally, but I don't think I want to risk our friendship if he doesn't feel the same way.

Today is November 18th and I reckon that Sirius had already snogged more than half of the fifth year girls already this year. I don't know why these blond bimbos keep coming back to him even when they know that they're only going to get crushed, but then again, I do know, he's pretty irresistible.

This is another reason I just can't tell Sirius how I feel. There's always a chance that he could just break my heart just like all the other girls he "allegedly" dated (Sirius's definition of date more closely resembles a hit and run than an actual relationship, so yes, "allegedly"). On the bright side, if we did get together, he would actually know my name before we kissed!

Tomorrow is the full moon. I know all about Remus being a werewolf and all that secretive mumbo-jumbo. I also know that the Marauders, as they called themselves, transform into illegal animagi. They offered me a position in their little "let's support Remus Lupin when he is a werewolf during the full moon and keep him company even though he could kill us!" support group. As much as I loved to break the laws and face death every month, I kindly declined the offer.

I was never, and will, most likely, never be friends with Remus Lupin. We talk every once in a while and we are civil towards each other, but we were never really friends. Out of the four boys, I only took interest to James Potter and Sirius Black, they were my best friends aside from Lily Evans of course. I flat out don't trust Peter, that little rat. He just gets under my skin and festers. I don't really understand why those boys like him.

These are the things I think about on a daily basis. Right now, I am walking down to the owlery to send the letter to my mother. At the beginning of the year, she insisted that I write to her at least once a week.

I wouldn't disobey her orders, I don't have a reason to. I love her half to death, and miss her like mad. She is like another friend to me, let alone, my mother. Ever since my father died, she and my brother Alec have had a lot of time on their hands. Lately, they've become world travelers, visiting places like Ireland, India, even America, all while I'm stuck in school. I don't really mind though, I know it helps mum keep her mind off of dad.

Alec is six years old now. He never got the chance to know his father. Voldemort, no I am not afraid of his name, got to him too quickly. My father had always taught me to follow my dreams and do what's right. That is exactly what he did. He opposed Voldemort in every way possible. By the time he died, he was one of His biggest opponents.