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Steve insists on walking me back to the tower. 

"It's just not safe, I don't want anything happening to you." 

I smirk. "Have you forgotten, I am an all-inclusive superhero." "Yes, I actually forgot." 

"So um, how is it to not remember anything? Do you think it'll ever come back?" 

"I really don't know but I hope of course. That's what my sister taught me. Never give up". 

"Do you often think about your time back in the 40s?", I ask. 

"Every day." 

"How was it? Your life?" 

"I often think about how I took it for granted. There was this girl. I wanted to marry her. I waited for the "perfect moment" but then I crashed the plane. When I woke up they told me she died shortly after. Killed in a last desperate try Hydra's to win the war. They took everything from me."

"That was Anna right?", I ask softly. "Yes", he sighs. 

"You knew the winter soldier right?", he asks. 

"I wouldn't say that I knew him. We were experimented on together and later I accompanied him on missions." 

"Well, I knew him." 

"What? How?" 

"He was my best friend. Bucky Barnes, Anna's brother." 

I stop walking and look him straight into his steel blue eyes. 

"Captain, how would that be possible. He'd be over 90 by now." 

"Probably the same way I am still alive", he shrugs but I can see the pain in his eyes. 

"And please, call me Steve." 

I smile softly and we continue our way back to the headquarters. I sneak glances at him, appreciating his quiet strength and the casual way his hands are tucked into his coat pockets. 

"Are you okay? You look like you're freezing." 

"No, no, I'm totally fine! Thanks though." He nods slowly. 

A few minutes pass by before he stops and looks down at me. 

"Okay no. You are obviously colder than you admit. Here take my coat." 

"Thanks, but what about you? You'll freeze to death." 

"No worries, last time I woke up 70 years later" 

I chuckle and, wrapped in his coat, I enjoy the cool breeze as the sunlight paints the city in warm shades of orange and red. 

Steve and I approach the entrance of our tower, and he holds the door open with a gentlemanly gesture. Inside, the sounds of the city fade and it almost feels like home. Or whatever I imagine it feels like to be home. 

• • • • • • •

"Oh my god! You need to tell us everything. From the beginning to end. We wanna know everything!" Nat is all excited when she learns that Steve and I passed the evening together.

"Nat let her breathe!", Pepper laughs "but don't you dare start without me! Lemme get the wine and the snacks!" 

We get comfortable on the couch and make sure Jarvis alarms us if someone comes in. It's funny how I really enjoy spending time with both women and having 'girls nights'. I guess you don't miss something until you get to know what it is.

• • • • • • •

"Okay we need to start working a little on 'Pandora'", Pepper says and lets herself fall on the couch right next to me. 

"I thought Stark said I need to wait until I prove myself 'worthy'". 

"Bullshit. We're just not gonna tell him.", she smirks. 

"Color?" 

"Hmm?"

"For your suit! We need something no one else is wearing. I mean you can stick to your widow suit if you want to but I would suggest something new. Something different." 

"Definitely something new. I'df like to leave my past behind me"

"Absolutely!", Pepper smiles enthusiastically. 

"Do you have any preferences? Lemme think... does your power have like, i don't know, a color that it expresses when you um use it?" 

I nod, "Yes, it is like a deep purple. It's hard to explain it but I hope I'll be able to show you in the near future without harming you."

"So purple it is! What else do we need? Sheaths for your daggers, a belt to secure an automatic...", she says, deep in her thoughts. 

I pick up 'Harry Potter' once again while Pepper works on my suit. From time to time she mumbles words like "fireproof" or "heat insulated", fully concentrated on her task.  

After a few hours she shows me the finished design. 

"Wow, Pepper that is amazing! Thank you so much"

"Oh please, that was nothing! I really had fun doing this! Lemme bring this to Tony and let him give me some of his sciency input. See you later!"


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