You call this life
This is a plate to feed me adverse chafe
A rollercoaster of despondence
I endure all this in so much silence
Maybe I've faced too much insolence
I learnt betrayal from so much experience
I prefer this silence
It's just me and pen
The only thing I d give a penny to bet
It will break not my trust
Hey, I've been broken by those I loved most
So believe me ,I do not trust
The betrayal birthed in me so much insecurity
Yes, crucify me for isolation
But please remember to place the blame on their deception
I am a loner
Hysterically , I attained that from being a lover
This silence I give is just love borne
So blame me not
When I enjoy all myself as silent
Few words spoken
It's all because I loved ,trusted fended for
And you know the reward
A heart left broken
He gave me his word
And everything he said I believed
The consolation he offered for my devastation
Blinded me to the deception
That was awaiting me
I never doubted
How could I, when he didn't just promised me heaven
But ascertained me he was my safe haven
So I forgot about the pen which used to take my pain
And I gave its place to him
Until he started using my solemn words and pain as a weapon
In his game
The agony ,mistrust ,insecurities
That he created all bricklayers of this silence
Call it insolence
It's just my defence strategy
A shield to cocoon me from their conniving acts
Their pretence to care
When they listen to your problems
While they cook up a way to throw it back at you
Pretending they have you back
Until they leave you in wreck
