Trampled Innocence

WAKAS

TW: Abuse, Manipulation

Damon's POV

"Look at me son, this is how you make love to a woman." I sat on the couch, watching the woman moaning as my father started whipping her. Every time the whip hit her back, she moaned, her eyes rolling back as pleasure was painted on her face.

"Ooohhhhh! That's it, Master. Fuck me harder!" The woman shouted ecstatically. Father kept on banging her from behind while she was tied to the bed.

I just sat there, watching them fucking their brains out. I was only ten years old that time.

For years, I have witnessed how women became submissive to Dad in bed. He would always call me and make me watch while they do it. At a young age, I have learned about sex and how to pleasure a woman in different ways. There were times when would let the women touch me in my most sensitive part, exhausting me from an extreme pleasure that I never knew existed.

My father had a fair share of women whom he only bedded, and then discarded like trash. But no matter how many women has warmed his bed, he never looked at anyone of them in the eyes.

Because in his eyes were the emotions he suppressed— all the bottled up pain, sadness and regret of losing my Mom.

My Mom, she had left my Dad for another man when he had nothing. Nalulong si Dad noon sa sugal, hanggang sa nabaon siya sa utang. He went bankrupt, and all our businesses failed. We were practically broke that time, because even Dad's trusted investors and partners had took advantage of him and turned their backs on him. Kung kailan niya kailangan ng tulong nila ay isa-isa nilang iniwan si Dad sa ere.

I was the only one left with him, and I saw first hand how miserable he was. Nilunod niya ang kanyang sarili sa alak at galit.

"Remember this, son. Kahit na gaano ka pa ka mahal ng isang babae, iiwan ka niya kapag walang-wala ka na. Kaya huwag kang gumaya sa akin na nagmahal ng sobra. If you have nothing to offer, no woman will stay with you," sabi niya nang minsang naabutan ko siyang umiinom sa bar counter ng aming Mansion.

Tumatak sa isipan ko ang sinabi niya. No woman will stay with me if I have nothing to offer her.

After months of mourning for his love's betrayal, my father came back as if nothing happened. Kung may nagbago man, iyon ay mas naging seryoso siya sa pagnenegosyo.

He became ruthless— a man without conscience who wouldn't think twice in stepping on other people just so he can be on the top. He didn't have an enemy, because he have conquered them all and built his own empire.

I grew up watching him play with everything— money and women. Alak, babae at sugal— that's how I remember my childhood. Hindi ko pa noon maintindihan kung bakit balik ng balik ang mga babae kay Daddy. Then I realized, he has a lot of money. And money can buy everything, even love.

"Son, if you really want something, chase it no matter what the cost. We are businessmen. Ang lahat ay nabibili ng pera. Kapag may pera ka, kaya mong bayaran ang lahat— kaya mong kunin ang lahat ng mga bagay na gusto mo," saad niya.

They were having a victory party dahil isang kompanya na naman ang napabagsak ni Daddy. From outside, I can hear the furious voice of the said company's CEO, who happened to be one of my father's former business partner. Isa siya sa mga taong nang-iwan kay Dad sa ere.

I believed everything that Dad said because I saw how miserable he was when he had nothing. Kaya pinangako ko rin sa sarili na hinding-hindi ako gagaya sa kanya. Hinding-hindi ako magmamahal, dahil ayaw kong maranasan ang naranasan niya.

But who am I kidding? I got my first heartbreak in High School. She was the first woman who made my young heart beat wildly. We've been dating for months when she suddenly dumped me. Her reason? She wanted to focus on her studies. My mistake? I believed her.