i wish i was blind
and couldn’t see
the meanness & ugliness
that is in me
my monster self
has always been bitchy
acting up as if
keeping out the best of me
i wish i was deaf
and couldn’t hear
my scream of sadness
my cries of fear
loneliness resonates
within the walls of my room
that in the mids of silence
i hear my heart boom boom boom
i wish i was mute
and couldn’t talk
that made me say all the bad things
and away you walked
now im not even sure
if i can ever bring you back
back to how we used to be
just you and me, carefree
i wish i was limp
so i couldn’t walk
coz im tired of running every race
just to save my face
and worse is…
all i can do is wish.
