sall_hwa

I apologize for the double (now triple) announcements tonight. I just could not find a way to fit the entire message into 2000 characters...
          	
          	Thank you to all of you who take the time to read my incredibly long posts and leave supportive responses. You're awesome!
          	
          	And this is a bit off topic, but I didn't know The Fiction Awards were back until I started to get a few nominations. It's been like this every year haha. I can't be bothered to check these things on my own. To be honest, I really don't care much for winning contests on Wattpad. Although, if you'd still like to show your support for any of my works, please do feel free to nominate them for any awards, including The Fiction Awards. I'm always very grateful someone would actually take the time to do that for me. 
          	
          	Good night and take care. ❤️
          	(For real this time!)

MystiqueWitchWorld

@sall_hwa congratulations on feeling so good! I wish you keep smiling and inspiring others. 
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The_Book_Monster

@sall_hwa I'm so glad it's all getting better for you 
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sall_hwa

I apologize for the double (now triple) announcements tonight. I just could not find a way to fit the entire message into 2000 characters...
          
          Thank you to all of you who take the time to read my incredibly long posts and leave supportive responses. You're awesome!
          
          And this is a bit off topic, but I didn't know The Fiction Awards were back until I started to get a few nominations. It's been like this every year haha. I can't be bothered to check these things on my own. To be honest, I really don't care much for winning contests on Wattpad. Although, if you'd still like to show your support for any of my works, please do feel free to nominate them for any awards, including The Fiction Awards. I'm always very grateful someone would actually take the time to do that for me. 
          
          Good night and take care. ❤️
          (For real this time!)

MystiqueWitchWorld

@sall_hwa congratulations on feeling so good! I wish you keep smiling and inspiring others. 
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The_Book_Monster

@sall_hwa I'm so glad it's all getting better for you 
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sall_hwa

Hello, everyone. I realize it's been a while since I made a life update. I went to the hospital today, and I’m slowly reaching the end of my treatment. I’m feeling pretty good overall these days. Although, work has been pretty busy lately, no thanks to the fact that it's parent-teacher conference time at the English academy I work at. I actually bought my very first suit this week. And let me tell you, I pull off the professional look surprisingly well. 
          
          With that said, this has been an opportunity for me to look back and see just how much I've changed this past year. I would have never imagined myself wearing a suit one year ago. But I kind of wish I had imagined it sooner. It would have saved me from buying a hell of a lot of flannels and jeans, that's for sure. :P
          
          Jokes aside, some other things about me have changed too. It's not easy to admit this, but one year ago right around this time of the year, I tried to kill myself. I did something stupid that could have put a lot of people in dangerous, not just my own self. I was in such a dark place that I almost gave up the opportunity for my current job. I really thought it wasn't worth making more money if I was going to die soon anyways. I wanted to give up on everything. 
          
          I'm so thankful to my coworker, friend, life mentor, and amazing eonnie, Lynn. She doesn't know I write online like this, but she does know how much I appreciate her. She was the one to give me a second chance when I believed I didn't deserve it. Despite barely knowing me and only having met me once prior for the interview, she still believed I had potential to work alongside her even after I had made it clear I couldn't handle the job. And that second chance resulted in an amazing year full of firsts.

DeannaHellerErskin

@sall_hwa It's a common but sad thing ─ to attempt to kill yourself ─ because it's something I try to do on a daily basis. But I'm glad you didn't go through with it and that you have amazing friends to talk you through everything. Should you ever feel the need to talk to someone, even a total stranger like me, please send me an inbox and we can talk. I'm glad you are doing better and I wish the best for you. 
            - Love, Deanna.
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justarandomsock

@sall_hwa Im glad you're better.
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sall_hwa

I really got to become a teacher, planning all of my classes start to finish and teaching my students lifelong lessons in between. I got to share my love for writing with them too, and they all improved their craft so much, as did I. :) 
          
          I fully came out as gay to my closest friends and coworker, all of whom took the news with open arms. I got my first tattoo. I confessed to someone for the first time in my life and got rejected for the first time too. I then proceeded to go out and kiss total strangers at a club for the first time just for the hell of it.
          
          I think you guys get the gist. I really have changed this year and for the better. I’m happier now. I’m more certain of what I want in my life. And for the first time, I think I’m heading in the right direction. I sure wasn’t feeling this way a year ago.
          
          A part of all this happened when I got that second chance. I didn’t know I needed it that much until I stopped to reevaluate all the things that had come after it. There’s probably someone you know who might need a second chance right now that’ll make their next year or several years brighter. Just think about that the next time you find a loved one hesitantly refusing your kind offer. It doesn’t hurt to ask just one more time. 
          
          Good night and take care. ❤️

Smart_writer_yahoo

Am I wrong or something coz I remember that there she have been a #2 in the three guys series 

Smart_writer_yahoo

@Smart_writer_yahoo ooooo can't wait to read the new one.. You are a gr8 writer btw 
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sall_hwa

@Smart_writer_yahoo there was a sort of second book but that got taken down. I'm reworking the second book in the series now which is way different from what it originally was. :)
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30pieces

Hey! So I haven't been on wattpad in agesss but I thought of this book that I've always loved and enjoyed very much back when I was on here, and it compelled me to log back on and look for it and maybe reread it. I stumbled back to your profile since that book was NtN! I know it's gone now but I'm sure you would have had your reasons, but just wanted to leave the message to say that I think your writing is lovely and seriously so good. NtN is just proof of that as I still cherish the feelings I had when I was reading your story and the story/plot/characters themselves! You're an amazing writer and I'm wishing you the very best with life and all <3

sall_hwa

@30pieces oh wow thank you for the sweet message :)
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sall_hwa

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Major life update! Things have been really great lately. I've been feeling a lot happier, taking my meds every day, and talking to my family and friends more.
          
          There was something my brother told me maybe two weeks ago when I had left home for a few days because I needed to get away from some crazy shit that had happened. He said that I'm free to choose whom I want to give my time to, but that also means every other person in the world has that choice too. You can choose who you want to help, but you can't determine who will choose to do the same for you. It's a harsh fact that some people are just selfish, even your own family. 
          
          I'd realized that from a young age, I was the only person who really tried to be selfless and keep my family together. I was the one who always had to give in first or no one else ever would. Back then, I believed it was worth it because I was so sure my family would do the same for each other. However, as it turns out, all I was doing was trying to chain three people who clearly did not want to be around one another. I was exhausted from the constant pulling on those chains, and they were tired of being pulled to an unwanted place. 
          
          What I took away from all this, and what my brother told me afterwards, is that I need to learn to live more selfishly. Sometimes, it's okay to be a bitch because certain people are really not worth your time. My family are all happy going about their own paths, and I am too now. It doesn't matter if we're not as close to each other as I had once hoped. I'm still happy. And ultimately, the most important person in my life is me.
          
          Since then, I've changed my life motto to "It's meaningful only if I want it to be." I have the power to choose what has value in my life and what does not. I am allowed to be selfish in that way. 
          
          Similarly, to those who are currently suffering to make everyone else happy and not their own selves, fuck that shit and move on to something more worthwhile.
          
          Goodnight and take care. ❤️

Dadadarada

@ sall_hwa  I'm sorry that you have to feel that way. But it's a harsh truth that we can't change people the way we want them to be because they too have something that they want to keep and something that they want to let go. It hurts so much because we thought everything will always remain the same, but maybe it was us that haven't move on. Painful truth but lesson have been learnt. It's not going to be easy, but move forward..may time heals all the pain. My regards will always be with you.
            
            P.s: I'm sorry to not be with you throughout all this time. Haven't been active for a very long time.
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JoeyIsNotHoey

@sall_hwa glad you’re doing great!!!! I’m happy for you! ✨
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Angelic_Vamp

@sall_hwa This is same like 'loving yourself'. It's not wrong and the fact having a bit of yourself while trying to balance other stuff is just...not selfish! You tried and it's their problem/decision.
            
            Hugs to you and take care of yourself. <3 Honestly, you're wonderful
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FictionalChaos

Ooh Don’t Try The Noodles is back yayyyyy I really enjoyed this story 

FictionalChaos

It’s the same with me I’m rarely on unless I’m updating. You do you and make sure you’re happy *thumbs up*
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sall_hwa

@FictionalChaos Yup. Thankfully life has become a lot more stable now so I'm trying to get back to regular updates. I won't be too active on Wattpad in other ways though. 
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sall_hwa

A serious goal of mine: leave Korea by 2025. 
          
          I definitely do not want to spend my life living here. There are so many problems with this country...

jay104

@sall_hwa I hope you achieve it. Every place in the world has its perks and its flaws. 
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FictionalChaos

I wouldn’t suggest the UK either we’re a mess here. If you’re moving I’d suggest the Netherlands it’s more open and free but then again I’m biased towards my home country 
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watashinomochi

@sall_hwa I think all countries have their share of problems and, more often than not, it takes being immersed in the circumstances to understand all the things we (as a society) could improve. Also, I feel you. I've been wanting to move out for so long...
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sall_hwa

Thank you, everyone, for your birthday wishes and compliments. I'm sad to say I ultimately got rejected by my crush last night. But I have no regrets. Better this than never having said anything and holding onto what-ifs. 
          
          With that said, as a way of getting over this crush, I'm more motivated than ever to rewrite DTTN. I reread the first chapter and felt there was way too much telling instead of showing to the point where I got fed up with myself while reading. So I've decided to take the first chapter down and start fresh. I already have my first line set and I'm happy with where I want to take the story now. Hopefully you guys will too. 
          
          Have an awesome day and take care. ❤️

Glory_feeling2

@sall_hwa Hi Sally, I'm sorry to hear she rejected you. I somehow know how relationships can hurt ... from a sneaky man who used me as a "rebound girl" or having someone tell it right in front of your face... that's why I'm still single and am okay with it. That is if somebody doesn't "rub it in my face" LOL! Trust me, they don't want me to write about them in a story!
            
            I'll go back to reading and writing soon! Take care.
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Magpakailanman_

Happy late birthday! Hopefully, now that you know what will happen, you will be able to move on better. You deserve to be loved for who you are  I will look forward your next update~
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watashinomochi

@sall_hwa happy belated birthday! Also, sorry that things didn't turn out so well... That's never nice but I'm sure you'll find someone who'll love you as you deserve to be loved ❤ 
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